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so i sat there last night listening with growing disappointment, feeling the bones in my hands and taking note of how frail they seemed, as they called out one name after another, presenting all these people, whose parents could surely afford to pay their entire college tuition in the flick of a cigarette, blinking of an eye, and still live ( Read more... )

first things first: I want everyone who reads this to leave a comment saying what you would like to do with me someday. Go ahead and be completely honest; x-rated comments are encouraged.

Then I want you to copy and paste this in your own journal, allowing your friends (including myself) to return the favor.
and now everything else. i had a very ( Read more... )

i lied and said my printer broke so id have to email it to myself and print it out. i didnt finish it during fourth block and asked how many points off it would be if i turned it in late, saying i had left out a paragraph, wanted to corret it, didnt want to turn it in as is. she said if i emailed it to her by midnight tonight she wouldnt count off ( Read more... )

ive probably said a total of 150 words today, possibly less. there are so many thoughts inside me. there seems to be this inner schism developing, and the portion of me thats calling the shots is about to be forced to pick a side and cling to it for a few years, until it splits as well. ive been putting it off for awhile. awhile wont last me much ( Read more... )

is there any question as to how the concert went? surely you must have all anticipated how id feel afterwards, and youd have been right. for four hours, i was a part of a cult of swaying bodies hypnotized by the same sound. they were amazing. absolutely. the stage work was very interesting, and the lighting coordinated well with the songs. it was ( Read more... )

yesterday was... ((sighs)) im not even sure i want to try to explain. it was the most miserable i can remember being in so long... i dont know how to deal with feelings like that anymore. my old coping methods have basically become extinct, and for the better according to society. so, when i found myself in such a deep rut, and falling deeper with ( Read more... )

things have been going well as of late. very nicely, i must say, with the exception of only one or two minor details. for some reason, i am finding myself in the midst of another cycle of not eating. but even when i do it, i find it constantly making me sick. this also happens, ive found, when i drink caffeinated beverages, but this is odd as it ( Read more... )

if there were two kinds of people in this world, the liars & the suckers, by way of virture versus survival, which would you be?its always interesting to step into my house and hear music playing. third-eye blind today. i always forget to take the cds out when i leave. it was rather loud, too, but i suppose it didnt disturb my father or brother as ( Read more... )