you know ... sometimes life gets hard. and then it gets harder and more frustrating. well, there are times when you totally lose the path itself. and that's when you don't know what to do. at all. i am currently at that state. and nobody can find that road again except for me. but i have to admit, the important people have been supportive. i don't ( Read more... )

life sucks. boys suck. girls suck. family sucks. friends suck. mmm, yea ( Read more... )

i don't know how much people think i can handle. and yet, it keeps on coming. bad news comes in more than threes. *is ready to puke ( Read more... )

well, so sunday ... he was willing to take it all back, without any promises. and like a fool, i got my hope up again. and then i told him not to take it back if i had no shot in hell, and he didn't. so i was crushed again. and i stayed in bed all day, crying, ranting, scaring the hell out of my friends. talek was very kind to me, taking the brunt ( Read more... )

i don't know anymore. i just know that i need to write in here. so, please excuse my 'whining', my misunderstanding and my broken-heartedness. i just need to write it all down ( Read more... )

so, here's it all. its a new year, but the same old shit. same old life. but, i feel myself growing more and more optimistic. i give more optimistic advice. i act more optimistic. being happy doesn't scare my friends anymore. im enjoying more things. is this to be blamed upon that boy? im not sure ( Read more... )

i don't know anymore. there are problems that i can't fix, i have come to realize over the past few days. there are things that i cannot control. there are things that i don't want to control. there are things that i NEED to cantrol, but cannot ( Read more... )

yea so ... here's the shitt that you all want to hear, starting with ... christmas eve at church. so church ... yea. my sister and i were taking bets on who the preist was going to be. i was right, it was father walen. but, during the homily, this little girl, she couldn't have been more that 3, goes up to him and says, Where is God? and father ( Read more... )

so, ive missed writing in this. im sorry. its just been so stressful. but last week, i did cry. alot. so yes, ive been overwhelmed. im still not fully stable, but im trying to help others now. because, that's what i do best ( Read more... )

well, i fell off of the christmas music. you can only listen to the same songs over and over again. and some of the remakes bug the crap out of me. i just don't listen to it as dilligently as i used to. maybe because im not happy ( Read more... )