Sooo... let's see, I'm at:137.5 today, the goal has been modified to 115. but then again that brazilian model is considered "plump" @ 117 at like over 6 foot. grrr. ok . so ( Read more... )

SO I had an epiphany today, and am continuing to get rid of bad habits, I'm sorry if this hurts anyone, I removed all the friends from my list,too many LJ communities are places for people who feel too sorry for themseleves, and dramaticize on how they are going quickly on a downward spiral, wallowing in their self pity, just looking for attention ( Read more... )

ugh, once I mess up I feel so bad it takes me forever to get back on track because i think" oh im just gonna stay a fatass so why bother, obviously I can't do it" thanks for your comments, like the whole reason I ate all that in the morning is because of ::guess ( Read more... )

ok its 1 and I already ate so much ( Read more... )

I'm a fat cow, I did get to my goal for this week of 130 but technically I changed it to this week from last week b/c I went home to parents for 4th july weekend... but seriously, I can't use "going home" as an excuse to stuff my fat face!!!! I'm gonna go home all the time soon, and what does that mean I have to eat? NO! besides its not like I eat ( Read more... )

sooo... its day 2 of my first ever fast feelin gooood :) not hungry at all... hmmm i should do this more often..

scale says 132, but my goal for this week is 130, but I still have 3 1/2 days to get there, so hopefully it's gonna work!!! yaay!

MODEL SIDEKICK.

that's all I need to remember!

around 900 again... :( had pasta w cheese... but I actually only counted off 20 littles pieces, which is about half the serving, which is 110 cal... and i ended up overbaking the chicken (aka it wasn't half raw as i like it lol) so i forced myself to eat like 2 oz maaybe... ineed protein, if only i didn't have special k TWICE today, I would have ( Read more... )

how sad it's only been one day and I couldn't even hold it under 1000, : 1300 oh well better than before I guess... blah, gonna force myself to sleep and wait till breakfast. Tried the whole eating slow thing today aaagain, CANT do it, i inhale my food, thank God my roommate is helping so much by forcing me to at least 20 minutes after I eat and ( Read more... )