I wish that heartbreak didnt have to be my first taste of real love

so im ok. thank fucking god im ok. i honestly think im better off. john and i are over, and getting very close to be over in my heart. and when it finally dies for good ill be perfect. as of right now. im doing well. ive had breakdowns here and there, and theres no garuntee that i wont have another one. but im beginning to realize, analyze and ( Read more... )

he doesnt love me like he used he. he fucking shatters my heart, to pieces. its on the floor and im starring at it. but theres no way in hell i can pick it up in one, or two pieces. its like a mirror, impossible to put together. the pieces will always be gone. and what i am doing? basically begging him to love me again. what the fuck? i dont know ( Read more... )

its crazy how it seems as if life chews you up and spits you out sometimes.. how things change so dramaticly, so fuckin fast. so surreal. how one minute you can be in heaven, the next in hell. in a beat.. i love you whitney. always. goodnight. ♥

im content. its amazing. PRIDE in san fran. was the best time of my life.. fucking great. will tell more later, must make money :)

im sorry. but i am now focusing on myself. people will not be givin the oppertunity to distact my focus.
i will now be alone.
i will now let you all go.
i have things inside myself i need to fix, heal, learn.
so let me be. please

i will miss you. dearly.
please dont hate me.

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so i have been thinking. dreaming. its amazing. im in a great state of my life right now. im sicker than shit tho. and i have a terrible fever. but im happy. my old best friend is back in my life. great. :). and everything is alright. i have alot of people i care about and they are about me. and honestly i shouldnt need anymore. dena and i arent ( Read more... )

i dont know anymore. i feel like my feelings are fading, dieing. and im feeling hate. for nothing, but for something. it is something. and im not going to care much longer. its a joke.

im having good times. friends. me. im ok. by myself.
i dont need it anymore. do i?
should i?
im alright. im alright.
so im going to sing to my music.
and fade away