i've definitely let everything sliiiiide these past couple weeks, but i'm home for the holidays as of monday, and i'm trying to lose as much as possible by Dec 23rd for a party ( Read more... )

sooooo its 230 in the morning, and i'm pretty much fucked.

( cranky rant about shit that's my fault )

I lied, I'm updating :)

I'm excited for my doctor's appointment on Friday so i can change my BC pills. I hope my boobs go back to how they were, and I hope those 5 lbs come off easier. I hope I hope.

Updates will be pretty rare in the next couple of weeks, and I most likely won't even be responding to comments... I'm panicking with all the school work I have to do, I feel like I'm drowning. Whenever I think about everything I have to do, I freak out. My classes end on December 6th, BUT ( Read more... )

I took two Stacker 3s today (spaced out, not together- IMAGINE) and I'm pretty effed up. I also think I'm getting sick, which is not cool. So I'm going to bed early, and starting the Stackers again tomorrow- still only 2 per day. I think I'd go insane and throw up my insides if I took 3 in a day, as of now ( Read more... )

so, after a temporary derailment over stupid chitosan- my stackers are here! ephedra, yayes ( Read more... )

okayyyy, so i ordered one bottle of Stacker 3s with ephedra, and instead I got the 5 mini bottles (same amount of pills) of Stacker 3s with Chitosan. I'm kinda pissed. I just emailed them and I'm not gonna take them or open them or anything until I hear back. Dammit, I was so excited to get my hands on some ephedra. In case there's some huge f-up ( Read more... )

sooo my "big breakfast" plan turned into like 676 cals. motherfuck it all. haha you know what that means? i have to stay under 200 cals for the rest of the day ( Read more... )

I just broke my fast today, because I felt too dehydrated and my head still feels (for lack of a better word) cloudy. I had an apple, half an orange, then caved and had a whack of cereal. Just dry cereal though... ugh. I feel so fat still, I hate my effing thighs. And my head feels like a pile of crap, and I really don't want to go to work. Like, I ( Read more... )

I'm surprised at how well this is going. I never really feel hungry, I haven't been dwelling on food. I don't even want anything, even when I feel hungry. My friend wants to go out for dinner if I was going to skip class... but I decided I'm not skipping class so hah. No dinner for me. I have no idea how much I weigh now, I haven't been at home or ( Read more... )