whoaaaaaa now. i'm like totally like writing in my online journal. it's been a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong frickin' time. i kinda miss you, LJ. every once in a while i lurk about on you...reading posts of the past ( Read more... )

so...i haven't written in a long time. as usual ( Read more... )

THE
NIGHT
WAS
BAD
ALL
AROUND.

"i'll pray for words to say to make these miles disappear..."i'm back from an amazing weekend in arizona and i don't know what to feel. so many reconnections, memories. if i'm feeling something i can't express it. i started a new painting tonight and i'm just frustrated. nothing is coming through in what i do. no emotion. it's all inside and i just ( Read more... )

i have a crush on a guy that works at my doctor's office. he and i BOTH notice each other but i am too dang chicken to ever SAY anything. he manages to talk to me but i clam up like...well...like a CLAM! he's super sweet and super cute...easy-goin' guy. i just had my 3rd encounter with him and i'm an IDIOT because i didn't say anything memorable. ( Read more... )

joshua, it was so good to hear you on my voicemail...but GOSH DARN IT I MISSED THE CALL! ha.

what a day.

phew...i can relax now.
josh made it out of surgery ok.
praise God.

yay!

i think that when something tragic happens to someone you know, people automatically try to prove how close they were to that person or make that person out to be a saint or invent a relationship with that person that they never had. makes me SICK and it just hurts my heart. i started to feel like such a bad friend to one of my best friends...my ex ( Read more... )

josh's surgery was today ( Read more... )

i just got home from the gym...yes...the GYM! amazing, huh? i got a membership at 24 hour fitness...ell oh ell. did legs tonight for about 45 mintues...and then lily and i flirted with the assistant sales manager named joey...and then we went to starbuck's...ha ha. yeah tonight was fun. i lub lily. working out makes me so much more happy...perks up ( Read more... )