Sometime in September 2007, I met the person I would spend the rest of my life with. He is now my boyfriend of a little more than a year, and we plan to have a future together. He saved me from my downward spiral, and my love for him is now unending, genuine, unconditional, and something I never felt for Matt. I never did get to see him again, ( Read more... )

Last night, I had a dream about Matt...in case you haven't figured that out from the subject line just yet. I don't remember the beginning, but what I do remember is I was in a room with people, I don't know who they were though, I don't remember, and he was there but I made it look like I didn't notice. I was in my dorm I think...and I walked out ( Read more... )

Well, I realize that those feelings I had for TJ weren't strong enough. Matt is just plaguing my mind. I don't know what to do. It's been what, 16 months? Give or take a few days or weeks. I don't know anymore. I was in boston for Anime Boston, a convention, the same one where I met Nick and TJ last year. They went with me this time, and we all ( Read more... )

So over the last few months, I haven't spoken to Matt much. I asked him to go to this dance my college had before Valentine's day (which I hate, by the way) and he said yes. He came, we danced, and I had a good time. When he left was when my bad depression really started. My heart couldn't take him anymore, or the stress of college. So I went into ( Read more... )

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YAY! I just found out that I only have ONE class that has a midterm and final this semester. WHOO!!! My midterm is next wednesday. And then no more! :D

But I'm still sooooooo swamped...damnit college is so hard. :0

I can't believe the work.

I absolutely refuse to pine over Matt anymore. This is ridiculous. I will probably see him on Halloween because his cast, Teseracte, from Boston comes to perform the Rocky Horror Picture Show at UMass for that day, but I won't give in to him. The bastard was just using me...and I have amazing friends who will be with me and who will support me and ( Read more... )

A lot of crap has been happening...the last 7 months, since the beginning of January, have been hell for me. From January to mid March, I was in such a horrible depression. From there, it started to get better, but not by much. It was the end of May when I got out of it. Let me start from the beginning ( Read more... )