I've whored myself for less than this.

[x_useless_x]

I'm using this journal again because not that many people know about it. I just got done reading over all my other old entries for this journal, while deleting them. And most of them were about Ben, the infamous fucking Ben. And I don't get, how I could be so happy with someone yet continue to push myself away from them. I remember many times of

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[freexdumb]

I do the same exact thing. I see myself hurting, and people tell me I'm being treated bad, but yet I don't do anything to stop myself. Maybe we find this addicting, or something. Actually that was a bad guess. haha. I don't think it's self centered to want things for yourself. Just hope for better days <33

[x_useless_x]

Thanks, I don't get it though. Why do we do these things? Honestly. I can't bring myself to say I won't tell him I want to be with him again, when I know I will. :'[

[freexdumb]

Well, in psychology my teacher told me that people who overeat and have extra weight, like being overweight. In the subconscious of course. So maybe we like the rejection and the drama. It's a wild guess, but could make some sense. Oh well. haha <33 hearts.

[x_useless_x]

lol, when I first read that I was like wtf?! lol. But, now I get it ;] . Yea, I don't know hopefully I'll forget about him.

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[skunk_punk]

hi im sry this has nuttin to do with the entry but its me chris add me and stuff lol <3