tonite was the hardest day of my life .

i love all of you guys so much, seeing you guys cry was so hard i would do anything to make you guys not cry. so all i can do for now is tell you i love you all so much. and that i promise you i will be back as soon as i can please dont forget me or replace me leave my slot open.. chuz ill be back.

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okay guys i lied.

im not finishing up this school year in fact im leaving on thursday :( :( :( its so gay and i no theres no way ill be able to say goodbye to everyone . ill be at school on mon tuesday and wednesday i think. and then im gone. ill be back for the summer tho, omgosh im going to miss everyone so bad this is the worst thing ive ever ( Read more... )

im moving.

but i get to finish off the year in vegas :( with sassy or well hopefully with sara but i dont wana impose or what no so we will see, and my mom and jerry and john will already be up here and i hafta come down here (washington) as soon as schools out. what a great summer.

im going to miss you all so much :(

eek. valentines days sucks. specially when you have no one to spend it with :-/ everyones all happy and talking about how much in love they are and how their boyfriend did this and that it sucks. i wish i had that still  :( steve bought me stuff and gave it to me on saturday it was so sad but i loved it, i sleep with the bear everynite :) and he ( Read more... )

Its crazy when something you thing is meant to last forever, unfolds right before you eyes. it sucks when you have no control over things, to the point where you loose the person you love more then anything. i really hope this is for the best maybe he will find someone to make him happyer. maybe i will get to grow old with him and have everything ( Read more... )

i was reading through some old stuff and found this. its so cute, parts of it kinda relates to me.

It has been so long since the last time you were physically in my presence we have been apart for longer than i ever wanted or could have imagined you and i were happy and working it all out when an obastacle stood in our way we had no choice but ( Read more... )

so my weekend should be pretty good, I HOPE. actually things have been kinda shitty lately. but hey what can you do? not much. i cant see my boo, at all. like once a week ugh and it sucks so bad chuz hes the only one who seems like is always there for me and makes me smile.. NO MATTER WHAT. not when hes convenient. i miss him so much, and i am so ( Read more... )

well things have been pretty good. ive just been trying to get a job and get my permit and do drivers ed and shit. and see steve as much as possible which believe it or not is soo har:-/ i miss how things used to be soo much easyer. i cant wait till i drive and i can go see him and work and everything yay. gosh man i havent updated in soo long. ( Read more... )

You no what? you can try but guess what.. you mean nothing.

gosh it hurts to be without your heart for a couple days :-( i hope i get to see it (steeevvve) soon. ugh i hate parents. they need to go sumwhere. they only cause problems :)

oh well anyyywaaays bbyye.

p.s my bdays sooon!!! :) :)