I'm dating a guy named mark... and i'm not gonna say i feel like i did with jay. BUT. it's getting better every time we hang. I don't think it's possible to feel like i did with Jay with anyone but jay right now. but i know he doesn't want me. i've cut all times, said i miss you for the last time ( Read more... )

im happier than i have been in years. nothing has felt this perfect in so long. i know exactly how i feel and exactly how he feels. and its the same feeling.

and i'm not scared. i'm not scared he's gonna end up hurting me. thats the difference.

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights ( Read more... )

it's never simple. never black and white. never perfect. never easy. you can't just meet someone and fall in love. they have to live 13 hours away or be engaged or separated and still married, or a black out drunk, or their schedule is opposite to yours, or have so much baggage it becomes your baggage ( Read more... )

And we sing with our heroes thirty-three rounds per minute
We're never going home until the sun says we're finished
And I'll love you forever if I ever love at all
Wild hearts, blue jeans, & white t-shirts
With wild hearts, blue jeans, & white t-shirts

and then there's:

It's funny how the night moves ( Read more... )

So my birthday was by far the worst birthday i've ever had ( Read more... )

this day will be hard to get through ( Read more... )

So, i spent all last sunday night with Andrew. Just being stupid, wii bowling, dancing. Then went to work on monday, went to waffle house with josie and anne. then to Andrew's going away party thing at Empire. I'm super bummed about Andrew leaving and i feel like he is the same about leaving me/my life.. but at the same time earlier i had noticed ( Read more... )

I can't help but feel as tho i'm losing everyone close to me. First Myke, he's on tour for 10 months out of the year and now Andrew is going on his train trip. Those are the two friends i have that make me the happiest, i have such a good time around them, just being stupid. they make me giggle and don't give a fuck about whether i look cute/even ( Read more... )

i did a photoshoot today. It was a remake of some Jean Harlow shots. I've become kind of obsessed with her.


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