longlost lovecosts armslegs and inbetweens- there are ends to reason and reasons to end. BUT THERE IS NO VINDICATION WITHOUT AMPUTATION &THERE ARE NO PROSTHETICS FOR HEARTS THAT DON'T GET IT. i got it. like torsos chase ghosts; shipwrecked off the coast- sights left for a whitesheetsuitcoat. you don't need lifevests on empty chests, you don't need ( Read more... )

A NEW YEAR UNRESOLVED.

while it doesn't mean very much to anyone but myself:

march 28th: my last federal loan payment.
april 25th: my last credit card payment.

while i'm still not in the clear with school debts, in may i treat myself to CABLE TV, which means UNLIMITED ACCESS TO LIPSTICK JUNGLE, TOP 40'S MUSIC VIDEOS AND ALL THE FIT TV MY ABS CAN STOMACH ( Read more... )

this girl had better get to closing her eyes once in a while and seeing a future to move forward to ( Read more... )

"because your life isn't really going anywhere-"

i don't know why it's so hard for me to open up. i'm a fucking lockbox and even i don't have the key to me.

obama. my birthday pres(id)ent. yes we can yes we can YES WE CAN!!

fourty fourth president. my dad's lucky number.

there are 12am visions; moonbeam collisions. jim beam decisions, and verbal incisions. heart rulers, havoc shooters, bottles full of adequate suitors. in my closet are the bones, and in my head the skeleton moans; when everyone's gone I'M STILL NOT ALONE. i never close my eyes, never open my mind- the locks on the windows keep the dawn outside [ ( Read more... )

pills in wooden boxes intended for my dreams; how could woe be me? with such a chemical to kill, all the looks that will, and such a world to build within my reach? towers above me &a baby down below, plants in pots too stubborn to grow. gifts from greater men, notes i'll never send, calendars to mark how long it's been since the weeks had ends. ( Read more... )

somersaults to sewer drains, smoking softer drugs, ace bandage to what remains. falling hurts a little less when clouds surround your judgement and your heart has left your chest. i extend my legs and pump pavement to forget. how long can you run with no end in sight? i've got the feeling of forever with wings on my achilles and flight in my good