i had a 2 hour phone conversati8on last night. it was nice. we talked about a lot. tried to figure things out and didnt get very far. its ok we will get it sooner or later. i hope things go back to the way they were ( Read more... )

im really getting sick of almost everyone. i hate how they insist on giving me their opinion that isnt wanted. i know i do it too but i dont try and make their choices for them. im 17 years old. i can make my own decisions. and if i make mistakes then i make mistakes. they only make me strong. but my friends just need to realize im a big ( Read more... )

so ive decided i like this. im happy right now. things are good. not too into it but still close. hes really sweet. today was fun. we just talked for like half an hour or more. it was cute. standing there holding hands and laughing. i could get used to it. i hope things turn out how i want them to.

so i thought he was cool at first. then i was like aww hes adorable. and since ive spent a little time with him hes become really sweet. like today was wonderful. hes really swwet. a total dork. but completely adorable. im kinda starting to like him..i think.

Have a seat.... relax ... and read this slowly. It kinda sums it ( Read more... )

so i had the weirdest dream last night. it made me think about a lot. it made me think how much i miss him. it made me think about how bad i want that moment back. it made me think about how i wish time would have stopped and let us be there together forever. it kinda sucks. i really miss him. i wish things were different.

so i read a bunch of old journal entries today. i was thinking about college too. i kidna hope that somehow my college essays i have to write to get in are about someone who changed my life. i have a lot of people that have but i think i found that one thats done the most. hes not only changed me in good ways but a few bad ones too. but thats ( Read more... )

so coming home wasnt as fun as it should have been. im kinda starting to regret going to these dances. they sound like fun then i get there and wish i was somewhere else with someone i actually wanted to be with ( Read more... )

so ive decided to say disregard that last post. i was thinking about it today. im 17 years old and i have the right to choose who i am friends with. if my current friends cant accept who i am friends with then there is a problem. and its not like im asking my current friends to be friends with him. but i am friends with him and thats that. so ( Read more... )

so i got the purse talk today. it was kind of entertaining and totally true. ive decided that he is the one purse i jsut dont need anymore. the one and i can throw away. ive made the decision but i can figure out how to do it. i know i jsut need to ignore him. but its hard. i mean hes just been that one guy ive turned to. and i probably ( Read more... )