it saddens me that things ended the way they did with liz. she was a great girl, but just doesn't believe me. I hope she's doing well.

:) I'm overdue for an e-mail to you but i can't quite get enough time to write one. Like right now i'm supposed to be getting dressed and ready to leave in an hour to go 2 the Galena lake w/my fam. It's actually gona b fun.. there'l b shish-kabob and bbqed food and fire and lake and water and i can windsurf, kayak ... and even 'flak" if u remember ( Read more... )

what am i most passionate about in life. currently, and day to day.. that would be my trucks. by default, i'm passionate about work, because I do it every day... and it gives me money. I'm a saver.. and like to invest my money. in my dreams of wonderment, i'm passionate about life, creation, times past. architecture. sitting back and seeing ( Read more... )

It's going to a show like last night that you really remember. Not because of the sore neck, raspy voice the next day. Not because of the ring in your ears or bruises to your body.. It's the band. The intimacy. Mudvayne gave a few of us a rare closeness that not many others as big as them have done. Even sick, they gave more than many. I honestly ( Read more... )

Fuck you and everything you are,
I'm me, we're us and that's all
Closed mind with a forum to criticize,
Keep your policy and I've got mine
Exploit me, fabricate your lies
We empower these cowards just to be left in
Silence

I've always been one to find a good deal. Every since my high school econ class where I won the stock market game, I've wanted to invest. After I graduated high school, I opened my roth ira. Just under two years ago, I started buying individual stocks. Even when the market does bad, I do good. I'm seriously good at everything I want to be good ( Read more... )

Met Metallica last night. 4 really cool guys. I was intimidated when I first met James. Here is this man, who's inspired and helped me through things in life. He's ominous. I said it was an honor to meet him, and glad that he was still here with us. That's all.. I was awestruck. Lars was silly. I had my daily planner with me (used as ( Read more... )

I thought you wanted to be my friend. My reason for wanting to be your friend, is friendship. She did not dump me. I've never decided against wanting you as a friend. I was suprised you called me that sunday night a couple months ago. I don't know why, but I thought that you were gone from my life. It was a suprise to hear your call. I don't ( Read more... )

ok.. so i totally just caught lauren hooking up with another guy. I suppose I was confused, thinking that we were commited. Which I was.. cause we're not (obviously!) so.. she called earlyer today, and told me to stop by after work.. I called on my way home, and then again an hour or so later when i was ready to go over.. no answer both times. ( Read more... )

I think I'm afraid of commitment in the beginning of relationships. towards the end (of a committed relationship), I regret not being more involved in the relationship... not getting to know the person more... and saddened by my loss of a wonderful person, just because I wasn't able to love them when they loved me. so many things about me that i ( Read more... )