i just got home from the mall...
i got ryan an operation ivy shirt...not sure if he'll wear it though... why do i do so much for him....even when hes a TOTAL dick face?

<3..

wow...
we went out on the boat today...mom got wasted off her ass. she told me she doesnt want me to live with her anymore and that i need to move out.

i used my time today...listening to music...and thinking alot. i talked to ryan twice...and he just pissed me off. im really sunburnt.

....<3

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hello boyfriend its called pick up you FUCKING PHONE.

he starts drinking.
its all down hill from there.

has anyone ever noticed that EVER entry...has had a sad face.

Punk897978: you have contorl
Punk897978: be like hey fuck you
Punk897978: I got awesome naked pictures
Punk897978: later
Punk897978: and he will be like damn I suck

wow. alot of people say that they would love to come see me, but the one person i want to come more than anyone...refuses to. justine, katie and kathryn i would LOVE for you guys to come, but still...its like...god. why doesnt he want to see me enough to take like a few days out of his life to make me the happiest thing on earth? . . . its sux that ( Read more... )

i love when people tell me that ryan misses me...i guess its just reassurence? (cant spell) anyways...its just lovely.

i actually fell asleep last night. i had a dream that you where next to me as i slept, but you never fell aleep you judt kept rubbing my arms and touching my face. you would kiss me as i slept...and whisper "i love you" in my ear ( Read more... )

wow, i havent been this sick in a long ass time. i feel like i ate WAY to fucking much. (probably because i did) anyways...i cried when i talked to ryan. i cant stand being away. i told him that i wish i was there so i could go crawl onto his lap and say "i dont feel good, i need hugs" he said "aww i would love to hug you" and i cried. getting ( Read more... )

unpacking is depressing

its really fucking sad that i dont even want to wash my clothes because they kinda smell like his room. i hate sleeping alone...especially after ive had someone next to me for the last, what 6 days. im going to miss smelling his hair and skin as i sleep.

actually "living" with someone you love...testing it out for a few ( Read more... )

i had fun. jessie did my extentions for me...so p.i.m.p now. my hair is right above my boobs. i <3 it. i fell asleep early last night. i was so mad. so much time i lost...by sleeping. i woke up at 6am. i saw him sleeping. hes beautiful when he sleeps. i wanted to wake him up and spend more time...but he was to cute to be woken. got back up at 9am ( Read more... )

so im in florida now ( Read more... )

so ive lost two of my best guy friends. danny and travis. not gona go into the story about it, but lets just say i said something i shouldnt have, therefor travis isnt to happy with me...and danny just...gah. hes a fucker and i dont want to be around him anymore. thats sad my bestfriend of almost 2 years...i dont want to be around ( Read more... )