no matter what i do i feel like i always fuck up. even when i try to make things better i fuck up. it's like a lose lose situation if i try to make an effort to change my life or help out friends i fuck it up. if i sit around and don't do shit i fuck it up. os either way everything always gets fucked up. i just said fuck so many times......fuck ( Read more... )

cooooooooooooooooooooooooooool ( Read more... )

i feel as if my last journal entry was a little too harsh. it just seems like with every passing day things just get worse and worse and worse and that there are no signs pointing ting to anything getting better. last night i found out that for year i've not trusted someone who i should have been trusted the entire time and was being lied to by ( Read more... )

FUCK YOU ALL!!!!

you're all pieces of shit. i have no real friends anymore it seems like. i've lost trust in people that i thought i've never lose trust in. people that are supposed to be my "real" friends are acting like a bunch of fucking shit heads. fine whatever i'll just sit in my room as soon as my finger heals i'm riding everyday that i ( Read more... )

i'm leaving bye.

COLD WORLD BABY!!!!

panic reunion next friday.

today was the worst. this year already started off shitty kind of setting a pattern for what i believe is yet to come. i hate school, work, new jersey, and almost everyone in new jersey. this year probally won't get any better than last year and it hasn't even been a week and i can already tell. i'm really ready for it to be my turn to be happy. i ( Read more... )

new years resolution:

not talk to anyone anymore peace.

ok so i relized with the assitance of a swell friend of mine that it's pointless to stress over this shit. i'm totally cool now back to my good mood that ended in the beginning of the week. i have a sweet new hoodie, klu ruled the other night, craziest time at sean baker's house and new years tomorrow/tme recording might actually turn out ok. ( Read more... )

change of plans it turns out i'm an a HORRIBLE fucking mood.