i wish i could be dead and no one would bother me. that I could see the police taking my body out of the house covered in the white cloth so no one has to see my bloody wrists or the rope marks around my neck.

*I was told that once you have everything taken away from you and your as far down as you could get like you hit rock bottom that you will alwayz have hope even if you dont think you do or cant see it. When you have nothing left is when you trully find youself and whatz important to you. Now Im not at rock bottom, and Im not as low and down as I ( Read more... )

yesterday I freaked out..yet again.. becuz of my meds. most of it is fuzzy but I couldnt stop shaking and I wouldnt sleep cuz I was afraid theyd think i was dead and have a funeral for me, and I wouldnt take a shower becuz i was afraid my hands would strangle me and make me drown, i wouldnt go outside becuz i was afraid id slip and fall and drown ( Read more... )

i should still be in the hospital. i. i lied so i could get out but im not better im not im not n they dont know they cant see why they cant see i dont know but i should i should be and im not and im here n they all think im ccrazy n i know they do they just wont tell me they wont but i know they think they do. i dont blame them im only this crazy ( Read more... )

~What is certain, is not that you are certain, but that you are not ( Read more... )

*Tonight my lil baby kitty, Pawz had to be put to sleep. He was suffering so we didnt want him to hurt anymore. I loved my lil kitty..why him? I mean I kno life works like that but it shouldnt, not with my kittyz. Everytime I was upset he would just kno and he would come and purr and Id pick him up and tell him what was wrong and hed give me lil ( Read more... )

alexis is the #457 most common female name.
0.03% of females in the US are named alexis.
Around 38250 US females are named alexis!
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hell yea im unique! loz

ok this makes more sense to me right now in my situation with damon then anything has. this kiddo is seriously one of the smartest onez alive ( Read more... )

*I still dont fukin know what to do bout Damon. Im so confused and I dnno. I wish someone would tell me what to do. so yup someone tell me~!~ All right im makin a trip to georgia and savin Natalia from the absolute nothingness that is Georgia. First it was Shannon who left and now its Natalia. shit why is every1 leavin. I mean I kno Leominster is ( Read more... )

*well IM HOME!!!!! finally. the hospital was ok.. overall it ok. I went to Westwood Lodge.. in Westwood. way out south of boston. It was something that needed to happen and I glad it did. They say some people come out worse, unaffected, or changed for the worse. I learned alot of what I think about and how I think, how I perceive situations and ( Read more... )