i guess sometimes we're just not meant to be happy. i can't seem to find a reason for me to enjoy this situation at all. nothing i want is going to work out. either choice i make, i won't be happy. which leaves me with a great dilemma. i'm just so tired of trying right now. i'm so tired of trying to make everything i want to happen. i just ( Read more... )

so i figured out that the worst part about working a 14 hour day, besides having the hydraulic house on the truck blowing out, me smashing the fuck out of my finger, and having trailers not work with the truck i have, is the fucking fact that i have to be back at work in less than 10 hours to do it all again ( Read more... )

i love friday night's when i'm coming home from the bar and its still light outside. ugh. i have to be at work by 6 tomorrow morning. i'm so fucking glad tomorrow's the last day before this bullshit job settles down. then i get to relax and go back to my 50 hour weeks. i miss my saturday's oh so much. and my trips to lafayette. at least i get my " ( Read more... )

i've come to the conclusion that my life is desperately lacking real human interaction. i spend all my time at work now. other than talking to erica for 15 minutes at night, i have no real other interaction with people. this is starting to drive me crazy. i have no real way to express myself to anyone. maybe its just the fact that i've been ( Read more... )

i guess i might start using this thing again ( Read more... )

well, its definately been a long week to say the least. my first week at work was everything i expected it to be, and more. as usual, i got sunburned the first day. but thanks to my stupid ass hardhat, my forhead was safe. i guess that's about the only thing that it protects. seriously, what's gonna fall on my head working on a landfill. other ( Read more... )

it's been a little under a year since i've last done this. i find it somewhat odd, i can't tell if i just haven't had the time or if i've just lacked the urge to sit here and write about my life. maybe its the fact that almost every post i've ever made on here has been me bitching about how my life has been. i think i'm finally content. i'm done ( Read more... )

does anybody even use livejournal anymore?

ps. i'm done drinking whiskey. it hurts.

i hate the smell of summer.

i am in need of an extremely powerful computer with capabilities in either 3dstudio max or autodesk viz, anybody know where i can find one?