ok so the past couple days hasnt been all that bad.... hung out with some really nice people that i never even knew, made cookies at 1 in the am, watched movies, had pillow fights, went to a show that i didnt think was gonna be fun but turned out to be awesome... so yea had lots of fun the past couple days i thought it was gonna be bad but really ( Read more... )

so this is how i figure things work... you give someone your all and after you gain feelings and trust for them they drop you like a ton of bricks, well at least that how it seems to be happening... and again i figured out why im always being walked all over, i care too much and i let everything get to me waaay too easily... so now im giving up all ( Read more... )

anyone who doesnt have the guts to show how they are when they post something in someones journal are fuckin worthless and assholes especially when hat they post is something usefull or nice so fuck everyone and anyone who post things in journals as anomynous and dont have anything good to say... so fuck off and dont post shit in my journal unless ( Read more... )

ive given you my all ( Read more... )

right when i think something is getting better or good i open my eyes and realize that it really isnt, when will things get better and stay good, why cant everything just be good again? why does everything seem to be my fault... i let you slip away once and since you came back ive been trying to hold on for dear life but youre slowly slipping away ( Read more... )

ok all together today has been a pretty much horrible day... i had a very unwelcome visit from my step dad, and my brothers are complete assholes that i cant stand... and well i got stuck bringing my brother to hockey but before i did that i had to get gas, so i went to get gas and some fuck backed into me... no damage luckly... then on my way home ( Read more... )

i thought the tears of the past were gone and right as i was getting through all my problems they crept right back up on me ( Read more... )

i thought you were back... but i dont know, it doesnt seem like it... i wait up for your call, but no answer... but ill live even though ill never know if youll ever answer me or really be back to pipck me up and keep me off the ground... so where are you? please dont leave me here... where did you go?

im lost in these memories that are crying for help, these memories make me cry myself to sleep... they hurt, and its hard to speak of them, and only one person knows the "story" of these memories, because its told as a storry about a little girl and well youre the only person ive been able to tell and had the feeling that you can keep it to ( Read more... )

All those nights sitting up crying ( Read more... )