This weekend pretty much sucked. I hate life. Yadda yadda yadda. Friday was Meg's party. Bad stuff happened because of it. Enough said. Saturday was the Scare with Daniella, Kate, Steve, Mom, and Susie. Pretty funny. Then the Grange. Wasn't too good. Don't know why. Just yea, let's not talk about it. Then I spent the night at Nikkie's and then ( Read more... )

Hey.. I wasn't really gonna write in here anymore since my mom started reading it. Plus the fact that no one reads it besides her. You don't care, I don't care. Really no point, right? You know what I thought was great? My psych. was completely right. I am moodier than ever now that I'm on Prozac. Don't see why I think that's great, I just want to ( Read more... )

I have a confession to make. It's not a big confession and it's not anything remotely deserving of worry. If that made sense. The truth is that I think I'm getting worse. I'm too emotional. I'm too sensitive. I give in too easily. Suicide sounds too good right now. And I don't want it to be that way. I want to be strong, even when she's weak. I ( Read more... )

"Run into the bathroom, turn on the fans, the shower, the tap in the sink, click up the toilet seat, swig both sodas, vomit. And vomit some more until your knees are too weak. When you stand up, they'll buckle, and you'll swing to the edge of the sink, holding on for dear life. Dear life my ass. By November, you wish you were dead. You want nothing ( Read more... )

The stars in the sky ( Read more... )

I haven't written in 3 days.. hmm what happened? Well school started kinda good then it sucked yesterday. I had my locker jammed, missed the bus to chorus, and failed my first Trig quiz. So it sucked.. and I came home and broke down and was miserable and cried. Then today was a little better. I got to chorus, found out that he isn't counting the ( Read more... )

So yesterday was the first official day of school. It sucked. I hated all my classes and I was depressed and cranky and tired and sick all day. Last night, I felt so suicidal because of it too. But I was strong and I'm happy about that. Joe and James and Arianne were really there for me. Thanks guys<3 And talking to Nikkie for two hours on the ( Read more... )

( Just 1 pic.. just for Nikkie )

You must look at these.. They are quite ugly..
( I'm choking you, stealing the breath from your lungs )

Did I ever say this thing is friends only? *shrugs*