new name: cuttingxaddictx

i have a new lj.
soo add me if you want..
*ahem hollie. amanda. and aL*

i feel so alone right now. i wish that there was someone that i could talk to. that would actually talk to me and listen to what i have to say.. i dont even know who's worthy to talk to. or even calling. not even a long distance phone call will keep me satisfied. i haven't cut myself in a few days... so that's a good thing..i guess?

i cried for like the millionth time today.
i cant get rid of these negative thoughts that are running through my head.
nobody sees me the way that you do.
i cry in depair and in pain.
because i know deep inside.
that we cant be more than what we already have.
i'm the ghost.
you are the one that i look out for.
&the only thing that i see.you are ( Read more... )

im 17 today, woot.

i talked to my baby on the phone. it made my day!!! i love him. <3

i miss johnny. enough said.

"turn your face away from the garish light of day ( Read more... )

i've had the same song on repeat for hours ( Read more... )

im suffocating in my brain.
i hate being trapped inside a cage,
never being able to experience anything on my own.
all i hear is dont be like them. dont be like them.