i always fall for guys the same way. i see them once.. instantly start crushing hard, w/o even knowing them. then that one guy is all i think about. it's sooo dumb ( Read more... )

was so fucking amazing ( Read more... )

i did something stupid last night. actually.. 2 things.

1.. i did something that i didn't know people actually do voluntarily, and 2.. the person i did it with.

this fucks up everything.

and now i'm so incredibly confused.

i got offered a new job tonite. $10,000 more a year, paid vacation, paid holidays, full benefits for me AND rylee, my own office, bonuses, and most likely a company car in the near future (a nice one, 2007 tahoe, maybe ( Read more... )

so james armshaw od'ed on heroin last night. and it fucking kills me. it hurts so bad. i cried all night last night, and off and on today. even tho i haven't seen him in like a year, he was still my friend and i have so many memories with that kid. i wish his life wasn't so hard for him. i wish i could've been there to help him. just 2 days ( Read more... )

so last night i finally went to his house. hadn't gone yet cuz it's far. i knew something was up tho. 22 year olds don't just live in 5 bdrm houses by themselves. so when i got there i made him give me a tour. he just showed me the first floor, i was like.. i don't think so.. somethings up there. i thought maybe he did live with his parents ( Read more... )

i'll never have a bf ever. so gay. i dont' have the time. this is like the 3rd guy i've been "talking" to, and i can tell he's already getting frustrated cuz i don't have the time.

i hate this.

but i'm not even emotional, like.. i could care less if things fell thru. i don't think i feel anymore.

so i'm almost/kinda/close to "talking" to a few guys. and i dont' even like any of them. wtf. i don't know why i do that. it's such a waste of time.

i wish i smoked. cuz i'm in the mood right now.

www.last.fm has the best music on it ever. how do they know all the good shit? wierd.

i am so incredibly bored. i can honestly say i haven't been bored in forever, months, or more... unless i was standing in line, or something like that. but never @ home, bored. this is so gay. i''m not even tired ( Read more... )

did one last spree. and I"M DONE. i'm spent.

dior sunglasses, SO EFFING CUTE..
birdhouse skateboard for rylee,
vans for mom

god i hope it's sunny tomorrow.

i had to take myself shopping for valentines day so i don't sit home & mope. i spent way too much. but whatever. i'm done now. got all the shit i want.