breath in, breathe out...well soetimes that just isnt enough. i put up with alot and i dont get upset easily but my limit is about up. I kno i seem to only write in this thing when i'm angry so this will be 1/2 happy 1/2 venting. anyone hwo doesnt want to hear the venting dont worry about just skip this next paragraph lol i jsut need to get it ( Read more... )

so lately i havent felt any sort of worth in myself. i have too many decisions, too many desires, and too much free time to be thinking baout this stuff. i've hit lazy mode and i want ot work for money but i dont want to cuz that means gettin gup and doing something. I feel like i'm jsut a blob and i'mnot happy with myself at all lately. and i'm ( Read more... )

i finally got the cd i wanted. and i finally imported most of my car cd's. and i finally cleaned my room. but right now i'm kinda bummed. school needs to start so i can be signed into a class and switch it from wed. to tues. and so i have stuff to keep me busy my room is so clean, my groceries are done, my fish tank is setup nicely, and all my ( Read more... )

my fish acts like a dog...how awesome is that? i love it ( Read more... )

ok so i'm bored enough to actually sit downa nd wirte in this thing, that says somehitng. lol well i finished my first semester at ucf got all A's in all my classes and i take 5 more classes next semester however i kno i'm not gonna have hte luck of having john and zach in basically every class of mine :( hopefully SOMEthign will be togehter ( Read more... )

so fall semester is almost over and it feels like it flew by, however graduation feels like it was forever ago. I've been catching p alot of old friends lately and quite frankly it amazes me. People change so fast and i swear i wouldnt recognize them now. Not jsut in looks either but attitudes and personality and jsut yea. I guess college really ( Read more... )

AMAZING!

that is all i have to say :)

i miss greg. his brother is looking so much like him its kinda creepy but theres definately a difference. i miss old friendships and counting on ppl to be there i miss the old days before stupid ppl got in the way. but i love my friends here i couldnt ask for better. this weekend should be pretty damn awesome. i mean tom. i spirit splash and then ( Read more... )

so this weekend has been amazing. my surprising jared after work was great. it was perfect timeing and as i stepped out of the car after telling him i was outside i see the doors of panera fly open as him and jason race to get to me first. we went to sstarbucks i ended up with liek 1/2 his coffee we drove little jason home lol he said he felt liek ( Read more... )

ok so from the last entry, i dont feel like 4 ppl anymore now i'm 1 person facing 2 different emotions. but 2 is better than 4! anywho, i'm so excited all week i have been this weather is awesome my friends here are awesome my events class was cancelled for today and i dunno i'm jsut really exccited!!!! for instance the other dya at breakfast with ( Read more... )