I step outside into a warm winter beeze; like Ive never felt before. Its late december; the cold is warm; pain has turned into laughter; heartache into love.  I look up to the sky and close my eyes, breathing in deep, breathing in moments of me and you. Your smile, your laugh, your touch. It plays in my head like a song on repeat; repeat and rewind ( Read more... )

I hate you. I really do hate you. I hate you for everything you have ever done to me, I hate you for how vain you are. I hate you for how disrespectful you are, I hate how much of a liar you have become. I hate that I let you walk all over me for years. I hate that I was so blind. I hate that you used me for secruity comfort money and sex. I hate ( Read more... )

 I keep that picture of you and her posted on the background of my lap top; you know, that one that rips my heart out everytime I look at it. That one where you commented "That's just us, it's amazing." That one picture; where you and her are lost in eachother's eyes, you can tell your looking at her heart. Why do I keep this as my background you ( Read more... )

Can anyone makes this stop? Everything just needs to slow down. I pull at my hair. Crying, I slowly fall to the ground. A cold rush of liquid against my lips, the taste of white powder. 500 mg. What is black, is now white. What was white, is now gray. Swallow. Exhale. I want to escape, please get me out of here. I want to run far far away. Another ( Read more... )

Slow down now, into the darkness of your thoughts
Hurry up now, they are waiting for us to fall
Fall to pieces now, a broken mirror in your life
Silence in black & white - 
falling forward as she walks towards the light.
I know, I am outisde of your window with my radio

I sleep with one eye open so I can see you breathing
I follow your chest down, until I ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was leaving NKU going to Amanda's house so that we could go watch Alexis's football game and study like usual. What was supposed to be an innocent day turned into something huge. Something that opened my eyes to what is really important in life, and how it is important to live in general. I was driving on 275 and was in the process of ( Read more... )

"If everyone cared and nobody cried, If everyone loved and nobody lied, If everyone shared and swallowed their pride... Then we would see the day that nobody died. And as we lie beneath the stars we realize how small we are, if they could love like you and me imagine what the world could be."

I dont know what is wrong with me. I cant even begin to ( Read more... )

My life since new years has seriously been amazing.
I love changing for the better.

Clean of drugs,
Of course still drinking.
Mom knows I smoke,
and im quitting in time for her.

Accepted to a college I have pretty much already half paid for.
I get a horse next year, the one Im working with now.

L I F E I S A M A Z I N G

qouted from an amazing girl -
"Before you go commenting on my lifestyle, why don't you try thinking about why it exists this way, and whether you could've ever done anything to make it better. Did you take that opportunity? Probably not"

Totally Agree.
Thats to all you fucks who have opinions about me.

That really big change that I wanted, I got it ( Read more... )