seventeen years on this planet

Sep 28, 2004 20:11

i wish somebody would just let me know who i'm supposed to be.

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xbravenewgirlx September 29 2004, 18:49:07 UTC
i know what you mean, but you're one i tend to always believe.
thanks, love.
<333

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sorry if my comments are always late, i haven't had much time lately... spedcialchild September 30 2004, 14:27:27 UTC
you are who you are, you're not supposed to be anyone. you are just you. i hope that helps.

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Re: sorry if my comments are always late, i haven't had much time lately... xbravenewgirlx October 1 2004, 19:04:24 UTC
s'okay, i can relate, as this whole senior-year business is sucking up my time lately.

i understand you, i was just feeling a bit frustrated at the moment of this entry. sometimes i wonder if the who are you? deal was a bit overrated, because i mean, aren't you different things to different people? you'll always see yourself in a different light than how the world sees you, because the people surrounding you are bound to have differing opinions. i think the lesson here is just do what you love, do what makes you happy, stop worrying, try to be a decent person, and things will fall into place.

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summerscene September 30 2004, 16:15:33 UTC
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

:) :) :)

i feel the same way.*sigh* life is very...annoying. you dont know who you are really yet, and sometimes you think you are THIS, but you arent. dont worry hon, you are not alone. i have no clue who the hell i am, either. and i really want someone to just walk up to me and tell me that this is me.

personality malfunctioningly yours,

melissa anne*

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xbravenewgirlx October 1 2004, 18:28:50 UTC
why, thank you, my love.

i know, sometimes i just want a random somebody to stroll up to me in the middle of a crowded street, look me right in the eye, and go "you know this is what you are meant to do, right?" all seriously. and it would also be nice if they handed me a printout of the way my life is supposed to unfold.

and other times, i'm rather glad i have the power to choose where i go and how i get there.

i'm just confused, but knowing that practically every other teenager alive, especially one named melissa anne, currently residing in orlando, florida, is feeling exactly the same, does wonders for the psyche.

<3

p.s. where are you on AIM lately? is it just me, or have we not talked for decades?

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summerscene October 2 2004, 19:18:23 UTC
it sure feels like decades. im on almost every night! (between 7 and 9 on weekdays, and god who knows on the weekends) we need to talk!!!!!!!!!!

this just isnt the same because you dont get instant replies.

*sigh*

super bored in orlando-ly yours,

melissa anne*

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xbravenewgirlx October 3 2004, 20:55:07 UTC
too right, it's not the same.

my insane amount of homework is keeping me from frequenting AIMland at my usual all hours of the night, so whenever you see me log on, IM me right away, will you please? and i'll do the same, i promise.

hearts,
j.

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sweetvlady September 30 2004, 19:58:16 UTC
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST
♥♥♥

i remember when you first mentioned your birthday coming up, i wrote it down on a pad somewhere so i'd remember, but i didn't and i'm sorry.

i don't think anyone knows who they're supposed to be. i think it's some big secret that maybe you find out in a dream or something. or you have an epiphany. or everyone else knows but they won't tell you because you have to use trial and error and come to some sort of conclusion on your own. sorry i'm making no sense at all.

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thankyouthankyouthankyou<3. xbravenewgirlx October 1 2004, 18:59:21 UTC
don't worry, darling, this isn't a test. i'm surprised it registered in anyone's memory. i always feel a little relieved when it's over, because in movies, birthdays are always a change-your-life sort of thing, and the uninterrupted monotony of my life had me feeling a bit loserish there for awhile.
and you are making sense. i know this whole "who you are" business can't be so cut-and-dry, but sometimes i wish it all was. something my brilliant english teacher said the other day was that getting older was actually a really wonderful experience, because at some point, you stop caring about how everyone else sees you and you just focus on living life. she also said that most people don't really figure out what kind of person they are 'til they hit forty, so i suppose we're just babies, really. we've got time to grow and sort things out, and i, for one, am glad of that.

thank you for the birthday wishes
& of course you don't need to apologize, love.

don't change<33,
j.

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the answer? pancaketuesday September 30 2004, 20:16:22 UTC
you'll never find it if you're looking for it.
happy birthday.

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understood. xbravenewgirlx October 1 2004, 19:07:30 UTC
as always, perfectly put.
wise old adrien.
thank you, love.
<3

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if wishes were fishes. pancaketuesday November 20 2004, 12:33:08 UTC
the only thanks i would need would be to see you smile.

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