it's been a little over three years since i felt this way and boy does it suck. i did not miss this feeling. as much as i knew it was coming, i didnt expect it to actually happen.  everyone asks me how i am and i just smile and say fine but really inside im miserable, im hurt, im broken.  as much as i want this to be like last time and after a ( Read more... )

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore ( Read more... )

Monday, January 1, 2007.

this is the year i have been waiting for.
i graduate from high school.. and i start college. =]

last night started out as a complete disaster.

probably one of the worst nights in a long time.

but it ended up not being soo bad.

i got to be with the man i love.
what can get better than that right??

sixteen is the key and crucial and natural age for a human being to be, and people of all other ages are arranged in an orderly manner ahead of and behind you as a harmonious setting for the sixteen-year-olds of this world ( Read more... )

s0oo0o.

school started. kinda exciting. .. not really now that i think about it.

it pretty much sucks. homework.. TONS of HOMEWORK!!!

yuck.

ya. so. not alot going on really.

sadly enough im watching the teen choice awards.

go kelly clarkson!!! hahaha.

oohhhhh

pauly did the cutest thing for me yesterday.

he brought me flowers(1 dozen pink roses) to dance and it was the cutest thing ever.

i actually felt really loved. :)

We aren't finished. We were never finished.. We just stopped.

i guess some things do come back to you...

soo...

im getting over it.

one piece at a time.

one day at a time.

things happen in life... and what can you do about it!! NOTHING!

:/

man.

even though im mad at him... this still sucks..

im still hurting.. obviously

i dont know how im not gonna be able to talk to him.

i cant stand it.   im eventually gonna go CrAzY & just call him.

he probably hates me 2 know. i shouldnt have yelled at him. stupid me. im just worried that hes not gonna care anymore and just move on.

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ok. so here i go. spilling my heart out once again.. while i cry my eyes out.

you dont understand how much this sucks.

ok so if you dont know.. me and paul broke up.

YA.. THATS WHAT I SAID.!

im just completely lost and lonely and confused. it sucks. and no one gets it 2. everyone is always like its ok.. its gonna be fine. no i really dont ( Read more... )