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brendon, dont flip out.
dont work yourself up over anything.
it just hurts more when you do that.

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fuuuuuuckin kill mee.

disappointment thats all i have in front of me ( Read more... )

i hope that someone has an answer for me.

why do i build things up in my head so much?

this is the reason why im always bummed out.
i build things up in my head, then get let the fuck down.

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh.

how do i change the way i am? how do i change the fact
that things let me down

i dont understand why i cant ever be happy,
i want to know why i get like this.
why is everything such a disappointment?

i hate knowing that im going to die alone.
maybe its for the best. some people probly
arent meant to ever be content.
i guess it makes sense because i dont plan
on living past the age of 30.

im back in one of those hate everything moods.

i went to the achc fest. culture shock was cool.
black ss is my favorite band.

im pretty sure i dont like most hardcore kids.
i need to vent this frustration. i gotta let people
know that i hate the way they are and do things.

dont waste my fucking time.