it feels like it been years
i STILL love scott
and hes STILL hurting me
and hes now going out with summer
and im going insane
alls i want is to be friends
but thats asking too much from him
hes throwing EVERYTHING away
and he has no idea what hes doing
he loves her...and i love him
and she will NEVER love him as much as i do
and she will NEVER be better than ( Read more... )

he came back

i realize now...i STILL love him...and i STILL hurt...my heart says to go back to him and try to win him back...my mind says to just forget EVERYTHING b/c its not worth the hurt and i'll be wasting my time b/c he WONT come back...i thought i knew what to do...but i guess i'll never know

the words i was dreading to hear were spoken last night...let me go is what he said...he said he was tired of hurting me...i'd rather him hurt me just to know he was still there...but now hes hurt me and i know hes not there anymore...and i have a feeling this time hes not coming back...unless i mean too much to him which i dont know if that even ( Read more... )

okaii all is out of the emo world for me...as badly as i want scott he said he needs time...so i'll give him time...which means i shouldnt be waiting for something that has a 50/50 chance...so im back with zack...and when he doesnt need anymore time then i'll just have to make a decision...stay w/ zack or leave zack and go back to scott...and i ( Read more... )

i miss him...i miss him more than people say i should...i dont know why but i do...after everything we've gone through...after zack handed me over to him and he didnt seem to care...i still dont know if he does...my heart dropped when he said he did love me...but i cant tell whats real and whats fake anymore...i need proof...i guess i wont be ( Read more... )

what doesnt he get?? hes my onli reason for living...hes the onli reason ive bettered my life...hes the onli reason ive stayed here...i have no reasons for him though it seems...it seems like i was just the person to help him realize he wants her and im over...if he wants me to let him go i will because alls ive ever wanted was for him to be happy ( Read more... )

the more and more i talk to him...the more and more i fall in love again...i dont know what it is he does to me...but i like it...i like it a lot...it makes me feel like i can breath again...even if it means for the most acute time...i mean hey if i can breathe again i'll breathe again...just because it may be forever until the next time i feel ( Read more... )

he finds me when im close to the bottom.  those are the lines of a song that i've found to be my situation...he knows i love him but i dont know if he knows the full extent of my love for him...i know he loves me but is it really strong like mine...im afraid to ask him how much he loves me but at the same time im not...i dont want to feel like im ( Read more... )