I'm so angry. It really IS time to move on and forget about him. Even though it seems like there is still something there, he has moved on quicker than I have. It hurts to see the evidence of it and accept it. How could he? is what I keep thinking. I don't know him anymore.
No matter how hard I try to convince him of the truth, he won't accept it. ( Read more... )

Once again I am so utterly surprised and amazed at the gall some people have to spread rumors about me and people important to me. I find it fascinating how months after something has happened or NOT happened, people still talk about it and create an even bigger lie than they started with. I am so tired of hearing things and having rumors get back ( Read more... )

So, I am free. The chains really are gone. I can begin living. Enough was enough. God told me this. He told me to TRUST Him, to stop thinking and speaking so negatively and to rely on others. Is the depression gone? If it's not it will be because I'm starting to feel almost normal. I pray to God that I can truly move on from here.

I just wonder, am ( Read more... )

I know it's been awhile, but I learned some important things recently:

1.) God is inviting me to "dance" with him and I have been idly standing around while his hand is outreached to me.

How have I been avoiding him? Sleeping and wasting my time. For the past two months, I have been sleeping so incredibly much and spending way too much time ( Read more... )

I ended it tonight for good. I don't think that it's hit me yet, but it is no more. We say we will be friends, but will it work? I don't know. But it's over and I feel unsettled. 2 and a half years, gone. But I don't think I will regret it.

For those of you who haven't gotten the OneRepublic CD yet, I want to briefly talk about one of their songs called "Come Home." I doubt it has any religious undertones or meaning in it, but to me it does, and it's a beautiful song, either way. Just take a look at the lyrics thinking from God's possible point of view:

[Verse 1]
Hello, world, hope you' ( Read more... )

This past week was pretty mind-numbing. I can't really remember much but only bits and pieces here and there. It's now Sunday night and I'm looking towards a week without school. I'm happy, but I don't feel like it will be much of a vacation. I have expectations I need to fill, not just from others', but my own too.  I am utterly tired, mostly ( Read more... )

Finally I am done with putting my blog together and posting my first entry. I wish I had more than 100 words to write with, but I will go back later and add on once this assignment is over. I'd like to keep it going. I'm pretty excited. Here's my The Heart of Cooking blog if you'd like to see it.
Let me know what you think.

I got a lot done today. I ( Read more... )

For my writing class, we have to make a new blog and write three entries about a certain topic/hobby/interest/etc. I am really excited about this, but I am on the fence. I was going to do my blog on cooking OR photography. Cooking would be great because I've started cooking a lot more lately and it's interesting. BUT, it costs money to make two ( Read more... )

For some reason, I'm not really in much of a writing mood. I'd like to think that I am, but alas, I am not. I feel the need to write though. So I will.

Things have gotten hairy. I might wish I was being literal... but I'm not. It seems whenever one part of my life gets under control and looks good, another part fails miserably. I thought maybe ( Read more... )