He does not want me to sacrifice my dreams but alter them a little. That is do-able. Time can be sacrificed. It is worth it. But I don't know if this will last. His mom actually is wanting to get to know me and kind of likes me now. I sat down and talked to her and cleared things up. I showed her that I can be trusted, especially with her son. ( Read more... )

Is love really about sacrifice? Is marriage about sacrifice? How much should we sacrifice? Where is the line?

It's not fair to be asked to give up everything. It's not fair to have the one you love give up time and money while you must give up the dream of living somewhere wonderful and doing what you truly love. It's not fair to have to give up ( Read more... )

What does it take to get more commentors/readers? I feel like... I don't know how I feel about it. Disappointed, I guess. Anywho...

I let Jessica down this morning. We were supposed to hang out until about 12 or 1 but my stupid ass couldn't get up. I went to bed around 2 last night and thought that I could get enough sleep, but I didn't wake up ( Read more... )

I am excited. For Valentines Day, I am cooking John a nice Korean dinner -- Jja Jang Myun. He said it is his favorite. He doesn't know I will be making it, at least not yet. I can't wait to go to the Asian market to pick up the ingredients. I just hope it won't cost too much. Today, I wrote out the recipe by watching Maangchi make it on Youtube and ( Read more... )

I'm so disappointed with the internet. There's nothing on it... it's just the same stuff all the time, everywhere. 

I pulled out my dad's old tripod from his (now my mom's) closet today. I never actually thought about using it until I realized taking a portrait of myself is extremely difficult without one. This tripod opens new doors for my photography. It's not exactly fitting... the screw that is supposed to go into the bottom of my camera is missing and/or ( Read more... )

I can't go to sleep. Okay, I can but for some reason I haven't wanted to. Why? No idea. Maybe I am hesitant to lay my head down on my pillow and think about life. Maybe I just don't want tomorrow to come. Maybe I am looking for something online that will fill my emptiness. I know nothing can do that, except God.

You know what pisses me off? There is ( Read more... )

Today was an average day. My last day seeing Margaret was nice. We talked about what I accomplished, what I want to accomplish, and then she gave a cute little certificate saying, "...to Shaye for gaining the confidence and self-esteem to believe you can achieve anything." It was extremely sweet of Margaret to make that for me.
I have learned so ( Read more... )

I worked out today with Carmela and Yuri. I was nervous the whole time because I am not used to exercising around anyone, especially ripped men in gym shorts. I am very proud of myself for going though. It's been awhile since I've gone and it needed to be done. I seriously have a long way to go before I can consider myself healthy. I think having ( Read more... )

Well, I have given in to the advertisement option on LiveJournal, all so I could use the S2 layouts.I am sad that I won't be customizing my layouts entirely by myself anymore -- I usually like to do it on my own and maintain as much originality as possible. I do like the layouts that are available though. I just wish I could edit them a bit more to ( Read more... )