I always have the strangest dreams... they vary in subject, sometimes they're about a friend, a family member, sometimes they're about being chased or flying, and sometimes they're about feelings like love and happiness. There are so many dreams that I could tell you about in detail, ones that were extremely vivid and ones that caught me off ( Read more... )

Dear journal,

I am sore all over. It's... ridiculous. I probably shouldn't have done the things I did to feel this way! My back is the thing that's mostly hurting. Not only am I sore, but I am partially deaf in my right ear. I got a bunch of pool water in it on Friday and I woke up the next morning with that feeling you get when your ear is clogged ( Read more... )

The end of my summer is encroaching upon my happiness. I've been in my summer politics class for about 2 weeks now and I'm starting to see the end of the tunnel. This is good and all, but this means it's closer to starting back full time and closer to finding a job that I will have to work at. Maybe I won't feel so bad about it once I get back from ( Read more... )

LOL
I have a celeb crush on a 36 year old. Is that wrong? I just find older men more attractive and gorgeous. I mean, most of them have got it all together, they have their own sense of style, and well this one particular man is just... beautiful! Josh Bernstein. Guh. 36? SO old! Anyways...

I have been bored to tears lately. I've been looking for a ( Read more... )

ah, summertime.

hahaha.....oh shit. I don't know how to feel about something... I'm...confused.
Confused. I know I should feel one way, but I'm not sure that I do? Sometimes I wish things were black and white.
I'm being ambiguous for a reason. Sometimes I just need an outlet without judgement. I wish I knew how to feel.

How cryptic. haha

I am always the bad guy; the one who screws up; the one who is "mean," when I am being called "trash" over and over again without  saying or doing a thing. I am always in the wrong; always having to appologize for meaningless actions. I am tired of having my personal life interrupted by rude accusations and uncalled-for  name-calling. I am tired of ( Read more... )

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I feel terrible. I've neglected my poor little lj for Myspace and Facebook. I've had an LJ for so long, years and years, since 7th grade. I don't want it to fade away like my xanga.

I'm in a really thoughtful mood right now. I think it's because I'm listening to some good music - ATB. I've never heard of him (he's a dj), even though he's pretty ( Read more... )

dear livejournal,

i am so angry that i want to scream, but i cannot. i'm not allowed to be mad. if i'm mad i'm wrong. i overanalyze everything, i worry until i worry about worrying. if someone asks me to be there for them and i follow through, i shouldn't have. when i ask them to be there for me, and they aren't, i'm not allowed to get upset because ( Read more... )