but you've got the love to see me through ( Read more... )

I swear to God I am okay with who I am, but I know some of the shit I do is not "normal" so I feel bad for some things... latest deal I am going through... Numb. Again. Period. Last time I was in this mode my life spun out of control. I can't do that this time because I have got it all together, I have got the good job, the baby, the house, ( Read more... )

I know what I am and I know what I am not. I know what I want to be and what I do not. Yet I put myself in these situations that I know are unhealthy for me. Maybe I just like a challenge, or maybe deep down I doubt if I am really good enough to be loved.. or if I am even lovable ( Read more... )

into the morning... for the night has been so unkind ( Read more... )

So I'm not going to dwell. I come in a package. A house, a baby, and a girl hanging by her finger tips to keep it all together. I don't think anyone in their right mind is ready for that... or is it the other way around... nobody in their right mind would walk away from it. Maybe both... either way I know how I deserve to be treated... and even ( Read more... )

It's four and I can't stand to work any more. I have been processing orders for fuel all day... if I stare at another Excel document my eyes will permenantly be crossed. I know I should be grateful to even have a job and I am but I always hoped I would have some crazy job that was super exciting... and here I am sitting in a cubical staring at a ( Read more... )

He bends his breath around my name ( Read more... )

from forgetting your name ( Read more... )

I now get the saying there isn't enough time in the day. I want to work out today but I also want to deep clean my house but I also want to spend time with Izzy. On top of all that I am tired. I am trying to be more healthy and eat better. I am hoping this will help with my loss of energy. Not drinking as much. Not stressing out as much over ( Read more... )

You may wound your chance to love ( Read more... )