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[xchinadesadex]

its been hectic lately.i had nate's 2nd birthday party and my stepfather's grandsons 2nd birthday also.ive been getting depressed again,part of it is that i think my medicene isn't working anymore and the other part is Pete

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[imustconfess]

wow you dont sound happy babe

[lucidacceptance]

Pete would get bitch-slapped in my household for being too lazy to change Nate's diaper. That is horrible!

What is your medicine? Is it an anti-depressant - if so you might just need a new one or something. Or you might need to beat Pete's ass and you will feel better!

[xchinadesadex]

i dont know what happened.he and i are having a bad week i guess.i think he's been forgetting to take his prozac.i am on welbutrin and lamictal but they are not working.its not just him,i am being overly clingy and hypersensitive because i am depressed and my nerves are shot.i am tired after taking care of nate and housework and he is tired after framing houses all day with a crippled foot and two people going through recovery together is stressful.but i am not as savage and brutal as he is with the comments.i slip and say "shit"in front of nate.i try so hard not to but ive always had a potty mouth.
when he gets me upset,my temper explodes and i CANT bite my tongue,i impulsively yell back at him in front of Nate.i have never said the really really bad words in front of him.i will be mortified the day he says anything he's heard in front of our families.

it will blow over,this kind of thing happens with us once in a while.i felt alot better posting about it and getting it out of my system.