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[xchinadesadex]

tonight i saw my new pdoc who is actually a nurse practitioner.she added yet another medicene to my ever growing list of drugs (wellbutrin,lamictal,trazadone and now lexapro.lexapro is an ssri.i hate ssri's.last time i was on one i gained weight and couldnt have orgasms.i told her that i refused to gain any weight or make my sex life any worse than

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[axcess_denied]

I take Lexapro and haven't gained any weight!
Been on it about 2yrs now...

[xchinadesadex]

does it affect you sexually?the other ssri's did not affect my sex drive,i still had that,but they all numbed me,which is extremely frustrating and turns me into a bitch!

[axcess_denied]

It's hard to say, because I have sexuall issues even when I'm not on meds ; (((

[amante_donne]

xchinadesadex i don't mean to pry and tell me to sod of and mind my own business if what i am asking is out of order, and i dont mean to offend but why are you on a growing list of medicines? is is a case of you will be on these for the rest of your life or will they come a day when you will be free of these medications. Also i have not read much of your LJ so i am not 100% WHO Pete is, but i guess he is your boyfriend/husband/partner, but eitehr way he has no right to put you down, and certainly no right to do it in front of your child.

I took a look at your user info, and fair enough i dont know you at all, but from where i am you look great in your picture, and in that picture you have your head held high and you look confident, unworried and without a care in the world.

Be strong

Steve

[xchinadesadex]

first of all,about the picture.it is about a year and a half old,i look exactly the same except my hair is alot longer.i dont have many pictures of myself because i don't like looking at myself.i just did a BIG shot of heroin when i took that.its the only picture of me that i like

[ccatsunfl0wer]

He sounds like he has no self esteem, so he's trying to rid you of yours as well. If you start thinking you are worth nothing, stupid, etc., you won't leave him because you won't think you can do better. Ohh the mindfucking, I've been through it more times than I care to admit to.

Don't let him project his issues onto yourself.

[xchinadesadex]

you're very perceptive.that's exactly what it is and ive always known it but knowing doesn't change it so i live with it.he has lower self-esteem than i do,and i have none!

[ccatsunfl0wer]

I only know because my husband and I did it to eachother for years and years before we actually broke the cycle. That stuff about loving yourself before you can love anyone else is very, very true. And as drug addicts, we usually have some sort of issue with our self worth, which turns into name calling and mental abuse to our partner.

Wugh I just sounded like my therapist. :(

I won't say leave him, run away or anyhthing like that. People used to bet that my husband and I wouldn't make it another 6 months, but we did. First we had drugs in common, then we quit and both started growing in separate directions, and then when we got to love ourselves we were able to love eachother. /ramble

[amante_donne]

I suppose I’m covering old ground and you have probably discussed this with others, but have you tried to look into the root cause of why you have no self-esteem? Sometimes I look at myself and feel pissed off about certain things, but its never been that intense for me. I certainly don’t think that your partner helps, if he puts you down at every opportunity and if he has, and I quote “a lower self-esteem than you and you have none” what chance will you ever have of getting any self esteem if all you do is suffer verbal abuse from your partner.

Has there ever a point in time, in the past where you were a carefree person, without any of this medication, is it the medication that makes you really anxious, or have you always been a shy sort of person. I hope I aint offending you by asking stuff like this, I just want to try and understand.

[lucidacceptance]

Hey, yes, you used the word "relegated" correctly. I don't pick dumbasses for friends, m'kay?

There is so much I want to say here, because there are so many common threads&personality traits between you, me and ccatsunflower. But I can't right now, because my "beautiful bundle of joy" just shit out her diaper & all down my leg. Damn incompetant Pampers designers!!

[xchinadesadex]

LOL....you have a way with words :)

[lucidacceptance]

Thanks..and my baby has a way with poop!

[junkified]

thats a shame your going through all that and your man gonna be a dick. i cant stand people who dont have basic respect for eachother. we're all fiends in one way or another. that equals us all out baby.