i feel like im at a constant fight with my tear ducts. they just wanna keep going and going but i just want them to stop! i just want to not have a reason to cry. the second i think about money or my financial situation, i want to break down and cry, shit i almost cant help not crying. im literally fighting the tears back. thinking maybe if i ( Read more... )

I just wanna say fuck it and throw it all away. Start from scratch. Im starting to think none of this shit is worth the stress and pain.

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What do you do when everything falls apart? I don't have anymore answers answers Im tired of always being wrong. I can't seem to get anything in mybvlifw right lately. I just want peace at this point.

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I entered into a situation i expected to work one way and its turned out to be the worst case possible... Or what i thought would be the worst. Im starting to think it might be for the best. Granted, Im losing someone i thought was a friend but it just made me realize they werent my friend to begin with. Im anxious to see how things will play out ( Read more... )

due to unforseen circumstances, ive been given a clean slate for this new year. i have nothing holding me back from exploring new avenues in my life. at the moment,i have nothing but free time and my day dreams to entertain me. instead of wollying in the fact that i have nothing, im going to embrace it and fill my time with things that matter and ( Read more... )

Thou know'st the mask of night is on my face ( Read more... )

why do people need to yell so much? whats the purpose of getting so pissed off over something completely insignificant? why MUST you be an dick for the sake of being a dick?! GET OVER IT!

i wish i had the ability to shut my mind off whenever i wanted to. it would make not thinking about things that upset me sooo much easier. there are so many things in my life that i feel im missing and they just keep replaying over and over in my head, making me feel like even more of a failure for not having them, for they're such seemingly ( Read more... )

way too often do i get lost in my head, creating a forest out of my own thoughts. a forest so dark with monsters created by my irrationalities. insecurities turning into great big shadows that keep any sign of light out. a forest so deep that no one can hear my screams as i try to find my way. i wish how i had someone to guide me through a safer, ( Read more... )

i finally started working again! yay! i really like it and most of the people. ive been doing really well, better then i thought i would. i have to say, im actually proud of myself for this. i expected it to be so much harder but im actually good at it. i deffinetly needed this. now if only everything else would fall into place for once.