this journal is old and this name is dumb.
I only use this to lurk ontdbb.

It's been almost a year since I've used this thing.

Updates:

Back in Michigan.
It snowed yesterday and it's beautiful outside.
I love my Rosie.
Leo has passed on.

This apartment is too small and it doesn't feel permanent at all.
Hopefully another branch? Who knows.

I'm overwhelmed as always.

We walked around the city for hours, but then a flood came and washed it all away. I hadn't thought about you until this morning. In a weird way, I sort of miss you.
For everyone's sake, let's hope that it's just an after effect.
I wonder if you even read this anymore.

I am most definitely not losing my mind ( Read more... )

You literally ran me over with mom judgement in the car today. You used to do this back in high school, but I couldn't verbalize what you were doing and how it felt. I love you, even though you drive me crazy sometimes. it bothers me that I have a thought and I can't tell you without you spewing fear and anxiety at me. You had about 1/3 of the ( Read more... )

that you ignore me still.

that I had a social disorder when I went to the shrink. I did not think that I had a social disorder when I left the shrink.

Right now I'm pretty sure I do.
I really, really, really hate my friends.
I'm so glad no one reads this.
I want to live in a cave and hunt bears.
I would be happy in a damned cave.

On a brighter note: TBA

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I think I'll be deleting my myspace or facebook pretty soon. I don't like facebook...mainly because I don't want to take the time to understand it. I feel old. My myspace is just rotting out from the inside. I like this thingy here because no one reads it anymore <3. I helped cater today which was nice. It was job like and I needed that. Also the ( Read more... )

My dad went super psycho again so we petitioned him. I'm cool with it. I get a break for at least a week. He's not invited to the wedding. I don't care who I piss off with that one. One minute he's telling me to move and the next he's telling me I can stay as long as I want. I'll be in hawaii in 2 years at the latest. When Steve comes home from ( Read more... )