Its funny how ( Read more... )

I threw up today ( Read more... )

He was any boy.
Their hands are what I remember,
or not so much their hands,
but my body under their hands.
The way I slid my body under their hands,
as one might slide a note under he door.
Wanting their hands,
the clutching hands of boys
who do not know the weight of their bodies,
or the weight of their words,
so they drop things carelessly,
and bruise,
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I cant remember
why i stopped
throwing up.

Why i stopped
starving myself

why I started eating
and living
again

is this living?
the after part
is this living?

The things you
have to live with.
And without.

My sister hates me.
What did i really expect?
I want to change, I want to be a better person.
But I can't.
I'm tired of playing the weak person.
I'm tired of being ungrateful.
I am tired of being nothing, and having nothing
and regreting everything.
And pushing people away.
I am tired of being this way.
Things need to change,
but they won't.

Ohmygod.
myheartispounding
outofmychest.

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I wont let you fall
I wont let you fall
I wont let you fall.

oh
my
god.
thisboy
andmy
heart.

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I have a problem.
I play the same song
over and over
way too much.

My current obsession is
Ll Cool J. Head sprung<3

aha so so getto