..Because I still have to live in this place. While you move out, you might as well be in another world. I have to sleep here with hundreds of memories and noises and objects and smells.
I am not leaving this place. You are. Do not start to tell me how your world did a 180 on you. Because even though it did, you are out of here.
Mine did the same thing, and I'm still in this place. I don't get a fresh start. I was never here alone.
I come home and I'm constantly just haunted by everything here, I want to leave.
I want to move. Away. Not even around here...just leave.
I am never sure where I stand on any of the spectrums: political, sexual, or religious. I consider myself liberal, but agree with my right-winged friends' ideals on certain issues. I consider myself straight, but feel that all human beings are beautiful and that the act of sex is natural both heterosexually and homosexually. I consider myself Christian, but question God’s existence quite often. I am what I am, but what am I? A walking contradiction? I don’t know.
my mormon cousin has to go to mexico city for 2 years for his mission! ahhahahahahah! his family is SO judgmental/prejudiced! when they'd come over from utah to visit us they used to always be like "ugh there are sooo many mexicans here!" hahahahhaha and he has to LIVE IN MEXICO! i wanna go visit him in mexico city. i've never been there before. i bet it's cool.
i'm going on a trip. i have maps. i'll wear my seatbelt, i will arrive and laugh. it's better to walk away from something knowing that one person has won. seems like whenever i've won, i've lost twice as much. pride has never meant more to me and i can only blame my childhood that turned me agile and cold
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i don't need anyone any more. i cannot commit to anyone. i am now labeled, though i did this to myself, i cannot help but think how funny this all is. fragmented my relationships are. i always think its going to go differently. that somehow "this one" will keep me around, but i toss people's emotions around and for loss of a better excuse; i couldnt care less. when i know i'm hurting myself too....it somehow seems less guilty (plauging). i'm very sick. i pretend i'm fine. story of my life. the drinking has started again. it's been nearly ten minutes since i said i "won" my battle. i think i only said that because i know other people read this and i desperately need someone to be proud of me. i'm such an idiot. who am i kidding? probably you.
Love alone is the single most happy emotion you can posses and give, and I have so much love in this broken little heart of mine that I think it confuses me sometimes. It is okay to be selfish, but it is important to decipher want from need. Right now, I need affection and compassion and love. But all I WANT is to make someone happy. I'm not being selfish. It is just hard to admit when you are in need. Especially when it is for something simple like love.
you dont need alcohol. everytime you feel the need to drink. GO TO SLEEP. and if whats her face haunts your effing thoughts. WATCH A SCARY SCARY MOVIE. and then it works cause youll be too scared and paranoid to be sad and yeah.
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While you move out, you might as well be in another world.
I have to sleep here with hundreds of memories and noises and objects and smells.
I am not leaving this place. You are. Do not start to tell me how your world did a 180 on you. Because even though it did, you are out of here.
Mine did the same thing, and I'm still in this place. I don't get a fresh start.
I was never here alone.
I come home and I'm constantly just haunted by everything here, I want to leave.
I want to move. Away. Not even around here...just leave.
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except im Catholic.
Long Live the Pope.
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MY SMILEY IS HOTTER
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i heart you.
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i love you
and other people love you too
and he loves you too
i guess.. idk.
but itll work out kay
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"oh no my heart is broken PITY ME NOW"
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to ease my mind
la la la la la la
:D
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everytime you feel the need to drink.
GO TO SLEEP.
and if whats her face haunts your effing thoughts.
WATCH A SCARY SCARY MOVIE.
and then it works cause youll be too scared and paranoid
to be sad and yeah.
:D
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