so i never really post to this this and i am going to now, i am sitting in the basement of the fire station at 3am why are you awake you may ask, ahh the wonderful thing of being on call and living on the other side of town ( Read more... )

so i am fucking confused right now, wait a minute shawn confussed never gonna happen. i really am its kinda scarey. ok so i am going for my commission again, which should happen sometime between the next two years but i have come to a conclusion and this is the part that confusses and everyone please aswer this question or help me answer it, yes ( Read more... )

fuck feeling fuck love fuck helping people fucking holding on to hope fuck romance fuck you fuck me fuck the world fuck caring fuck responsability fuck bush fuck republicans fuck communism you know what just fuck everything ( Read more... )

i feel sick, literally like my stomach is going to colapse into itself and i am going to die sick. so i am sitting here listening to old something corporate CD's just relaxing. I think this is the first time in my life where i havent had a depressing though running thru my mind, minus the sick feeling. so me and the madre had a chat today we ( Read more... )

ok this is to anyone that reads my fucking LJ if you dont want to know whats going on in my life or what i am thinking and feeling dont fucking read this and if you do dont bitch to me about what i am writing

so in a few months i wont be here anymore, which makes me rather happy. I am moving down to florida with a few friends for a new job hopefully, and a new life. its time to get the hell out of this area time to do something new, ok not really new i am going down there for a firefighting job so it will be somewhat the same. minus some of the things ( Read more... )

ok so here is an update for all of those people that i dont talk to every fucking day of the week. life is good, work is good, and so yea life is pretty fucking good. so i finally started liking someone, yep and she is with someone else, go shawn. but its actually a good thing. i have learned in the last few weeks that 1. i dont have to be all cry ( Read more... )

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret ( Read more... )

ok so yes its still very much sunday but i am going to work in like an hour and i am not going out tonight so my weekend is very much over, hmmm ok so friday it was guys night out, rented a room at londons and did it up and left at 3 am after a long ass chat with one of my friends sisters. so saturday comes i go to work and then i meet laura and ( Read more... )

If you'd just trust in me ( Read more... )