ha. honestly, livejournal is a joke to me now ( Read more... )

wow.. i kinda forgot about this thing..

livejournal sucks though

i like xanga better

i think im a myspace whore now too :)

x3

'I'm lying to myself and this dagger's my excuse'

fucking a.. i swear i just wrote a whole big thing and it fuckin got deleted.. what the fuck.. whatever... ill just yeah... yesterday was amazing.. went surfing with jess, ken is sexy, jess' school is full of niggers.. mind u that was said as a black family walked by.. umm yeah sunburnt badly... mmm  yeah...

i went out when i got home from soccer ( Read more... )

hmm. wow. devery. yes im finally using his name. lol. i really am over him. i think i just had to stay away from him fo a while. but the only problem with that is that we never DO hang out anymore. i mean we used to be such close friends believe it or not. but now hes just too busy doing drugs, hanging with christian and then some, and not going to ( Read more... )

theres 2 of em now. him, steve, and doug. ergh i just dont know what to do about anything. i am so stressed cuz i need good grades and finals are coming up and guys and friends and just everythnig is jsut stressing me out. but once again i put on a show. i seem like im perfectly fine but in reality, im burning up inside. i dont know what to do ( Read more... )

wow i definitely think i have a crush on him again.. i know i shouldnt.. and i dont want to.. but its the kinda thing where u cant help it.. i just cant help it.. as much as i want to and as much as i should.. and as much as all my effin friends know i have to and what not... i cant.. trust me i want to soooooooo bad but its just not happening.. ( Read more... )

i dont know about anything anymore.. not that its a bad thing but i just dont know about guys, friends, anything at all.. i feel like ever since ive been grounded ive drifted from everyone.. i mean natalie never tells me anything and i hate seeing my friends like that and then they sit there and complain and expect me to help.. but how can i when i ( Read more... )

im done with him.. im tireed of his shit.. im just gonna give up on him.. one of my close friends made me realize this.. thanks god.. hes just a complete dick who only cares about himself and drugs.. so when he needs someone to talk 2 when he usually came to me im just gonna leave him stranded.. maybe he'll finally know how i felt.. not to have ( Read more... )

their both gone.. both of em.. one has a g/f so i hear and the other is most likely gonna go out w/ one of my friends.. wtf i cant fuckin stand this.. everyone has a fuckin boyfriend or girlfriend.. i hate this.. i jsut seriously want someone 2 hold me in their arms and say everything is going to be okay.. but everythings NOT gonna be okay until im ( Read more... )

there are too many god damn boys in this world that i want.. he who i was talking about in my last entry.. i just dont know hes been acting really weird lately.. and a new HIM.. he is so hott and just really nice and just plain gorgeous but hey i dont have a chance w/ him.. he loves someone else.. what else is new.. hes a skater ::hotties:: hes ( Read more... )