I really honestly and truthfully don't even want to go home. Everything here is perfect. I have never before in my life used such a phrase, but it is probably the most accurate way to describe this last month. I have had no worries, no responsibilities. I have just been LIVING, and it has been the most satisfying thing I have done in a long ( Read more... )

Who am I? The fucking wizard of Oz? Take my brain, take my heart && in the end I can't help but think, "there is no place like home." I need to go back to school && work, because idle hands are the devil's tools. This break was a bloodbath. I need to throw myself into work because I know if I allow my mind even one spare moment, I will remember ( Read more... )

so i am sitting my apartment waiting for the troops to show up. i cant watch tv cause i cant concentrate i am so excited to finally have some fun. i have a full time job && am a full time student. so my time is pretty full. things have just been passing by. nothing exciting seems to be happening, in fact it sort of seems like the most exciting ( Read more... )

I MISS YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. YOU ALWAYS MADE ME LAUGH LIKE NO ELSE KNEW HOW. YOU WERE MORE BRILLIANT THAN ANY PERSON WHO HAS EVER EXISTED. THOUGH YOU WERE MADE OF FEW WORDS, THEY ALWAYS SEEMED TO RUB ME THE RIGHT WAY. YOU LET ME DOWN HARDER THAN ANYONE ELSE EVER DID. I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY FUCKING DAY. YOU HURT ME SO FUCKING MUCH, IT WAS EASIER TO ( Read more... )

all i want right now is to go to disney world. fuck everyone who has ever been, i want to be you.

so i am a grown-up? i have a full time job, a part time job, and my own place. my new conversation topics revolve around outrageous gas prices, "bills bills bills", and where the best place to put the coffee table will be. it is so weird. not just because i am a qualified "grown-up" (not a good one, but by definition) but more because i am ( Read more... )

"every time is the last time" with him. he "has a hold on me". i am too stubborn to admit anything, because the last time i did i ended in more confusion than i started with. unexplainable reasons and words that felt like the playful punches he gives, that actually hurt. it is his turn to make the move, but he will never take it. and yet despite ( Read more... )

all the talk about getting away, about moving on, about starting new. it's happening. i never really felt like i was moving on when i came to school. i didn't have a job, so i was still connected to my parents. when i needed money the fruit center owned my being. as much as i hate going back, it was just too easy. they pay me well, they give ( Read more... )

15 things i want to say to (but won't)/ think about people. anonymous of course... more fun that way!

1.) you are my best fucking friend. i have no one in my life like you, i have no one that has ever not only known so much about me, but shown a genuine interest in being as close as we are. i am so sorry i get short with you sometimes, because ( Read more... )

i am constantly fighting a cival war. my head and heart just cannot seem to agree. i am ready to detach. i want to, i need to. and yet i still see everyone around me getting what they what - what they need, and i am left in the dust. i feel like i am so small. i am not used to being this insignificant. i feel like i am not making any ( Read more... )