This is either going terribly wrong or really right.

Yup. I finally got exactly what I wanted. Good for me. I can now call myself Mark's girlfriend. Is this what I wanted? Will this make me happy? What the hell have I gotten myself into???

I wish my parents would stop wasting their money and let me leave college.

Here I am. I've been worrying about this for a while so it's strange to finally be here. Laying in bed, in this big old house all by myself without Kate or Angeli or anyone. I haven't seen in Kurt in what feels like weeks... he's been so scattered and lost and I've tried to help but he won't let me. It seems he's trying to find something beyond ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if this is real or not but I just smoked a bowl and don't want to die anymore. So has this past? I just took my last final so maybe a lot more stress has lifted then I expected. Anyway, things are looking better. The truth of the matter is that I'm dealing with change and I always lose it when things change. But it makes more sense ( Read more... )

Is this what happens? Do experiences that were once existential become nothing more then nervous breakdowns? Have I evolved into something so stable that I am resistance to change? I was so malleable once, so eager for change and alteration that I launched on it at any chance. But now I am stuck like stone embedded to the ground and no matter ( Read more... )

I started birth control two and half weeks ago...

so why haven't these emotions gone away yet?

It's really unfortunate how stupid boys are.

Why does he insist on making this harder then it already is?

It's interesting, the way birth control makes you change. These shots of estrogen taken in tiny pink pills and all the sudden I'm high on emotion like I haven't been in years. I don't care what anyone says, feelings are just as much of a drug as anything else ( Read more... )