Even though I know this will never be read by the person it is addressed to, I still wanted to post it.

Thank you.
Thank you for listening to me when you did not have to.
You told me one little line of advice I always seem to forget
& it helped me stop worrying.
"Don't close a door on something that you are not 100% sure about. You don't know if you ( Read more... )

Bathroom before:

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I need to smoke right now.

But FUUUCK- There is no more hookah left, my boyfriend has my pack of cigarettes, and I am trying to not use my weed... Not only will I want to eat, I also cant afford to buy more when my bag is empty. Bleh.
I need something else to distract me. What I should be doing is cleaning...

Ah fuuuuck it.
I might as well clean.

Ugh. Just weighed myself (and updated my earlier entry).
277.
Fucking Christ.
I have so much work to do before I can get back to where I used to be.

I am starting the 28dayplan today. I could not decide on a goal though, some of the ones I though of were:

• 300 cals a day
• Fasting
• 200 cals or less, ONLY before noon. Fasting after noon.

I think I will just go with the ( Read more... )

I should feel this guilty.
I have been bad.
Shit is going to change to the way it used to be.

Height: 5'10''
CW: 277
HW:300
LW: 130 (not long ago :/)
GW:100

Going to sleep
& hoping to wake up to a new day
& changes.