Why am I doing this to myself right now? I want to talk to him but I don't want to wake his beautiful sleeping body. I wonder if I am afraid of commitment because I am afraid of getting hurt. I feel like a fucking stupid retarded piece of shit, why do I not know what I want - ever. I want to confide in him. But, I am so fucking afraid of getting ( Read more... )

I am at a change. Scott and I let lose. Sure we get bitchy, but we just see eachother progress so much. I wish he was down for cuddling. When I smoke I get out my subconcious thoughts, that's probably why I cried the past 3 days, I held it in and didn't write about it. And today at Whipp's Ledges it gave me the me time I need while I'm in school. ( Read more... )

God damn do I want to travel. Last night was good. After work we went to Matt's and smoked and boy did I write and listen to some music. Then me + Scott went to go get Taco Bell and the line was super long, and we bonded. And as we were comming to Matt's we were just going to go..pull an all nighter and go. But then when we got inside, I guess ( Read more... )

Life as I know it, right now ( Read more... )

God I wish I had my liscence I'd plow almost every single one of you ( Read more... )

YES!!!!! SUBLIME IS ON THE TV ( Read more... )

This is the only place where I really bitch and rant, and very few people read or have access ( Read more... )

The Keys to Your Heart
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I feel like I almost forgot how to talk, I'm irritable, just want to sleep, and I especially don't want to be around anyone. I feel even more diverged in my thoughts, and I just want to be normal ( Read more... )

Okay so although, I'm sick I managed to get a lot done lately. I've been cleaning like crazy, and it feels kind of nice. Come less than a month I'll be sixteen, driving, and a proud holder of a job. For some reason I just want to hangout with people around my age now, I feel like I've been missing out on high school spending it down Jerrold Blvd. I ( Read more... )