You know what, it really sucks having a sibling who doesn't consider you their sister anymore. It hurts. I don't know what I did to diserve such a horrible family life. Some days I wish I was never born.
I hope I can apply to SUNY Fredonia. I'll be closer to someone who cares for me and wants me to succeed. That will be great.
I miss him so much. I wish I had a car so I could drive up for the weekend to visit. I miss cuddling with him and just being there. Is this what love feels like? I hope so. I could see myself with him for a looooong time. I've decided that I want to have 2 of my own children and adopt 2. Possibly foster some others at some point.
havent updadted this thing in a while, going to the paramore concert tonightt. so excited. all ive been doing this summer is working at kohls, which gets annoying soooooooooooooo fast.go back to JWU in september, boooooo
"Because any attention is better than no attention. For exactly the same reason, it is sometimes satisfying to cut yourself and bleed" - Running With Sissors, page 142