i hit a rock bottom a few days ago. i never want to be at that place again.

ive started on antidepressants. and sleeping pills because i cant sleep.

i started to talk to kevin again, i need friends.

RUSH starts tomorrow. im hella doing it.

my roommates talk shit, i know they do. whatever.

things will be ok. they really will.

shit what a week can do to my life ( Read more... )

what a fucking situation ive gotten myself into ( Read more... )

last night marly pulled some stupid suicidal shit and tried to kill herself. it was freaking stupid.. i guess she was overdosing on bipolar meds.. but then at the same time, me and charlie think she was faking..stupid bitch ( Read more... )

SHIT i hooked up with kevin last night.. it was the best ever.. for two hours.. man..it was intense..

so i miss john though.. hes at church camp.. how funny..

but i like kevin too.. well i love kevin..

and speaking of love.. chris is back in town.. i love him too..

I got 99 problems.... and the fucking bitches ARE THEM.

AHHHH SHIT FUCK GOD DAMN IT!

why do i do this to myself.

i hooked up with john.. PAC john.. hes attached.. kevin got jealous, hes been super nice ever since.. but whats wrong with this?!!! i like john and kevin..

4 more days... 4 fucking days.

we have internet now ( Read more... )

leaving for chico in a hour and a half.

im truely going out of my mind.

and its because hes so fucking crazy.

its really sad when youre counting down the minuets and the hours and the days till youre free again... the 17th is sooo fucking far away.. im sick of being broke.. i cant wait till this money comes.. im fucking going insane.. all i think about is things i can do to pass the time.. and i stay up all night just because the days are so slow ( Read more... )

im back home.

kevin and i "broke up" offically.

i miss him.

i decided.

I love him.