i havent slept yet.. i almost fell asleep in 3rd period but i heard the bell so yea... ive been thinkin a lot lately, about the things in my life, of course it wasnt good cuz im tired, i just wanted to be alone today and thats what i got with not too many problems, no one really bothered me about it.. im sooooo slow, my perseption is off and i have ( Read more... )

the thoughts of u dont fade away, they really never have.. it has been just way too long since ive heard from you, then i see ur name pop on, and my hearts pace quickened, all along i knew i missed you but i was surprised at how much u actually meant.. so now u say ull be here for christmas, that u already have ur ticket.. but i have no idea what ( Read more... )

well today was long.. went to second period then never had to go to 3rd so i got my last minute teacher signatures to go to the getty today.. then we left at snack and ms stucken bought all of us in n out and then left to the getty.. i was in the bookstore most of the time and then went to the coming of age place, i played with wax and wrote my ( Read more... )

well this is y i dont like being at home anymore.. me and my mother can never get along.. well i cleaned the house today like she asked but then she gets mad cuz she didnt want me to CLEAN it.. aparently she just wanted me to vacuum.. ugghhh... she cant even appreciate it she has to yell at me cuz shes in this ridiculus fight with my dad.. fuk it ( Read more... )

well today was opening night for rear window.. it went pretty damn well if i could say so myself.. well considering all the tech work involved, i love the entire drama group, backstage we're like one giant family with issues and insest... aka sexual tension.. lots of hugs, kisses, ass grabbing, and the all time favorite flirting ur fuking brains ( Read more... )

after completeing my wall i realized i am more empty then i thought.. its sad though how it took a few shallow pictures to show me the meaning of my life so far.. half of my wall is wonderful to look at the other is sad and depressing, my joys of the good half are slowly turning into tears and the things i used to love soo much have become painful ( Read more... )

every single time i try to write in this forsaken thing i never post it... uggh well this time i am going to post.. well today was soooo fukin awesome. the costumes were so fukin insane.. i was dressed as the girl from the ring but sluty, chandler and patty were pimps and me, phil, cam, sean, and ferney were their hos. omg!!! phil was wearing a ( Read more... )

hmm so much has happened i barely know what happened.. hmm well school is helping me survive my habits by breaking them, i cant help but not care about the mean things in life and focus on the present, school is great.. hw sux but its whatever, half of my classes r electives, the other easy. home life can get better, and friend issue, still shakey ( Read more... )

i just realized something about myself.. i have gotten addicted to somethings that i just cant get away from.. its become my habit.. like the way i am with ppl.. i like the way things turn out so i dont finish anything cuz ive never gotten to that point.. now ive gotten used to pain. so i do thing that i know will cause me pain.. im sooo stupid!! ( Read more... )

thurs i was plannin on bein alone but plans changed.. well riza called so i went out.. i was more the loner and they took it personally.. we went and picked up jaq and then went bowling... it was interesting to say the least.. we took niloo home and switched cars then went to the spot and smoked.. well i was supposed to get home at 12 and in bed by ( Read more... )