I could post and REPOST my last entry cause that's how I feel each and every single day......there is NOTHING for me here except regret!

i never want to go home...i have knots in my stomach about it... i dont want to get in that car, i dont want to go back to pizza hut, four days away made me realize i HATE MY LIFE THERE...i feel like im being driven back into a black hole of alcohol and never sleeping and working gay jobs and just pretending to be happy or every day striving so ( Read more... )

fridays and saturdays i seem to become on of the most popular people on myspace and via my telephone...the texts and messages start arriving from people out of the woodwork...the question at hand.. "yo whats going on at your house tonight"...i try to explain to them that although we have had numerous parties in the past and they were fun it is ( Read more... )

so last night i have to recount on account of the fact that VALONNNN was here...i almost feel that i did not show how enthusiastic i was about her presence in my house...last night but i was beat..sorry valon..it was truely epic. and i hope to see you tonight... the night goes as follows nothing extra out of the ordinary..im at work contemplating ( Read more... )

seems so depressed on here for god sakes put a smile on.

better?

FUCK THAT FAGGOT.

for the first time in forever...i am sitting in my house alone...no sleeping christopher...or drinking with jc or sleeping billy or wait...maybe fred is here, he got home last night we all missed him sooo much it was weird he was so smart with his souvenirs too he said i was in Jamaica and i realized this house was missing something...duh ( Read more... )

im living too much in the past...everything reminds me of something...i daydream about going back in time...not for any other reason than times are so hard lately...pinching pennies...worrying about my relationship...finding a new place to live...looking for a decent job...i have a hard time sleeping sober...im going to try again tonight...just got ( Read more... )

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