I miss him, but I want to believe everyone (and myself now) that I deserve better than him.
I've been dreaming and thinking, and even talking, about going on a killing spree. With a machete and maybe a hatchet. And if you ask me why? Because I want it to be bloody. I really am starting to think there's something wrong with me.
I still really care about someone, who was honest with me and told me they no longer felt the same. And now, they're here. He gives me butterflies and makes me feel amazing, and yet nothing will come of it. It's one of the most confusing situations I've ever been in. And yet, it's not awkward.
Well I hope that you DO believe that you deserve better than him. I am sure that there is someone out there who you are more fit to be with that you will love and who will love you in return.
I think that we all have manic thoughts sometimes. But don't let it get to you. Don't let it take over you. If you really want it to be bloody maybe cut up some meat and then cook it, you know? I'm vegetarian and even I'm suggesting this. Take a martial arts or defense class. Kick some butt. Let it out in a positive way.
That is good that he was honest with you. Maybe you should be honest with him as well and tell him that you still care about him so that he doesn't accidentally flirt with you or lead you on because that would not be a good outcome.
I hope the best for you; I'm sure that you have a lot of strength inside of you and will persevere. :smile:
i am like that to i love some one that has some one else and she knows how i feel but she loves the b/f, some times you can't stop who you fall for,i still love her and would go with her in a sec but it will never for me love is great but only if it is the one you want, :)
Take your pill
anonymous
April 22 2007, 12:54:24 UTC
One pill makes you larger And one pill makes you small And the ones that mother gives you Don't do anything at all Go ask Alice When she's ten feet tall
And if you go chasing rabbits And you know you're going to fall Tell 'em a hookah smoking caterpillar Has given you the call Recall Alice When she was just small
When men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving low Go ask Alice I think she'll know
When logic and proportion Have fallen softly dead And the White Knight is talking backwards And the Red Queen's "off with her head!" Remember what the door mouse said: "Feed your head Feed your head Feed your head"
Re: Take your pillxfearbeforeloveApril 22 2007, 22:25:23 UTC
This made me think of two different books.
One is called One Pill Makes You Smaller by Lisa Dierbeck. My friend Anna loaned it to me to read and I started it but was not really in much of a reading mood at the time and therefore did not get very far into it. However, I believe it is her favorite book.
The other one is Go Ask Alice which is an anonymous diary of a girl from the 1970s. A real diary that was found. It is one of my favorite books ever.
Anyways, this is a really interesting poem and it seems vaguely familiar but I can't quite pinpoint it. I'm not really sure why you shared it with me, but thank you nonetheless.
Have you tried talking to your girlfriend about this? Because first of all, you should do that. Try to do it in a calm manner. Perhaps write down all of your thoughts beforehand in order to have a clear understanding of what exactly you want to say. Don't make a script but just prepare yourself.
As sad a conclusion as this might be, it is still a better outcome than you cheating on her. Obviously you have feelings for her because I believe you really don't want to hurt her. However, if your motives are sex-related then maybe you shouldn't actually be in the relationship. It is something you have to figure out on your own. Analyze your real motives and what is most important to you.
But like I said before, just talk to her about everything before making any drastic situations.
Sometimes I have fantasies about violence against lesbians, including use of helicopters and napalm, the Houston Astrodome, and Ani DiFranco's politically correct acoustic guitar in flames.
On the other hand I have a great many sexual fantasies about male to female transsexuals and I am an allegedly straight male.
Particularly I resent Rosie O'Donnell's comments about lesbians being the lowest risk bracket for aids. I think that her head is a yam! Her head is an actual sex toy in and of itself.
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I've been dreaming and thinking, and even talking, about going on a killing spree. With a machete and maybe a hatchet. And if you ask me why? Because I want it to be bloody. I really am starting to think there's something wrong with me.
I still really care about someone, who was honest with me and told me they no longer felt the same. And now, they're here. He gives me butterflies and makes me feel amazing, and yet nothing will come of it. It's one of the most confusing situations I've ever been in. And yet, it's not awkward.
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I think that we all have manic thoughts sometimes. But don't let it get to you. Don't let it take over you. If you really want it to be bloody maybe cut up some meat and then cook it, you know? I'm vegetarian and even I'm suggesting this. Take a martial arts or defense class. Kick some butt. Let it out in a positive way.
That is good that he was honest with you. Maybe you should be honest with him as well and tell him that you still care about him so that he doesn't accidentally flirt with you or lead you on because that would not be a good outcome.
I hope the best for you; I'm sure that you have a lot of strength inside of you and will persevere. :smile:
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And one pill makes you small
And the ones that mother gives you
Don't do anything at all
Go ask Alice
When she's ten feet tall
And if you go chasing rabbits
And you know you're going to fall
Tell 'em a hookah smoking caterpillar
Has given you the call
Recall Alice
When she was just small
When men on the chessboard
Get up and tell you where to go
And you've just had some kind of mushroom
And your mind is moving low
Go ask Alice
I think she'll know
When logic and proportion
Have fallen softly dead
And the White Knight is talking backwards
And the Red Queen's "off with her head!"
Remember what the door mouse said:
"Feed your head
Feed your head
Feed your head"
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One is called One Pill Makes You Smaller by Lisa Dierbeck. My friend Anna loaned it to me to read and I started it but was not really in much of a reading mood at the time and therefore did not get very far into it. However, I believe it is her favorite book.
The other one is Go Ask Alice which is an anonymous diary of a girl from the 1970s. A real diary that was found. It is one of my favorite books ever.
Anyways, this is a really interesting poem and it seems vaguely familiar but I can't quite pinpoint it. I'm not really sure why you shared it with me, but thank you nonetheless.
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As sad a conclusion as this might be, it is still a better outcome than you cheating on her. Obviously you have feelings for her because I believe you really don't want to hurt her. However, if your motives are sex-related then maybe you shouldn't actually be in the relationship. It is something you have to figure out on your own. Analyze your real motives and what is most important to you.
But like I said before, just talk to her about everything before making any drastic situations.
Good luck! :]
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On the other hand I have a great many sexual fantasies about male to female transsexuals and I am an allegedly straight male.
Particularly I resent Rosie O'Donnell's comments about lesbians being the lowest risk bracket for aids. I think that her head is a yam! Her head is an actual sex toy in and of itself.
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