My moms kidneys are failing. I don't know to what degree but she needs to go on dialysis. I can't do this anymore. I watch my mom suffer from cancer, my father go through heart surgery and my aunt going through dialysis. I can't watch my mom suffer anymore. I wish I could stop their suffering. I wish I could find them both kidneys.

SO long story short, Chris and I were fighting, his mom butted in and yelled at me, then called Vicki a slut for no damn reason, I left and broke up with ( Read more... )

So for the past week I have wanted to go to the pool at the high school and swim but everthing has stoped me I only went once. My mom and I went to the pool store and bought a solar cover and reel so the pool is somewhat warm this year. Chris and I are doing well. I have found a new band that rocks my sock www.hyjinx.org they are amazing and they ( Read more... )

Last weeks entry because I had no free time ( Read more... )

My Aunt Donna has to go on dialysis for her kidneys for the rest of her life. She is like my second mom and I love her like a mom. I don't know what to do anymore. I wish I could give her one of my kidneys but she won't let me. Then today I found out my Aunt Janis has Lupus. I havn't seen her in years. Lupus is painful to live with and she has it ( Read more... )

I quite my job and now I am looking for a new one, Chris and I have been fighting non-stop untill today so lets see how that gos. I have been on a cleaning spree since wed and I got my period yesterday. I have work tomorrow at the storage place and and interview on wed at the cemetary down the road which I can't wait for. Vicki and Vinny have been ( Read more... )

My last night to stay up late and Chris is sleepin. I wanted to go shopping and he slept and told me to go by myself. How nice huh. My mom says he is to lazy and she can't take it anymore, she is sick of him coming here and then sleeping and then going home, I mean its ok if we are both sleepin and shit but he never wakes up. I can't stand it ( Read more... )

So yesterday was great in the begining I went for pedicures with Bridget in Huntington. That was so fun and relaxing, I havn't seen her is so long and it was so nice. Then I came home and a few minutes later Chris calls and tells me we are going out to dinner and its Nikki's ( his step sister) treat for his birthday. So he came here and then I ( Read more... )

Ok so I am stressed out to the max. I have 2 interviews this week, that I am so not ready for, and now chris just got fired from work because he was only seasonal. I want to scream, he has interviews comeing up and no money to pay for gas. I don't know how hes going to do it. I just want to go throw up. I feel like a fat pig. I am sick, I have no ( Read more... )

I feel like the last few years are just one big blur. I can't remember when things happened or if they happened while I was single or not. I feel like I was a dream instead of it really happening. I can't shake this feeling. It seems like only yesterday I went to sweet hollow with Bridget and Brian. But then again I can't remember when it was ( Read more... )