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[xfisticuffsx]

i dont know why i continue to use this thing. i never really have anything to say, and i only read things that make me feel like total shit. so from now on this will just be my count down device. deal with it. but then again the one person that i know use to read this often barely talks to me anymore so i doubt its gonna be much of a problem for

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[crimsonxlove]

I read it still.
I don't know how to act towards you because I know lately my behavior isn't acceptable. I would like us to be friends, but I don't know how to act or what to say. I don't want to lead you on, but also, don't think I don't care.

I'm sorry my feelings and words make you feel like shit. You need to realize that I can't censor my every word for you. I shouldn't have to watch what I say if it's what I feel.

[xfisticuffsx]

the statement regarding things making me feel like shit isnt all towards you. its everything. everytime i read about how someone is having fun away from this god forsaken place it hurts. becasue im still here, and if i hadnt fucked up my life so bad in high school i wouldnt be.

you arnt leading me on, i never thought you were. ive always known that it was over. i just never wanted to really accept it. but its fine now, cause i know that no matter what you will always be my first love, and our time together is something that ill cherish always.

i always want to have you in my life jen. i cant think of having it any other way. so yes i to want us to be friends. and we were doing fine before in that regard, casue as i said i didnt think you were leading me on

im hope things between you and matt smooth out, cause i know he makes you happy. and in the end thats all that matters in the end

sincerely yours,
mr. w

[crimsonxlove]

Oh, Oppasum. I'm so sorry. Sorry for everything. Sorry for how things turned out for us. And for you. You deserve so much more in life. I know you can do anything you want, you just have to try. I'll believe in you always.

[xblackxdreamsx]

i read it too. and a countdown sounds exciting now. thats how boring my life is.

[xfisticuffsx]

yea the countdown and the trip itself are quite exciting in my mind. i wish you could come with man.

thanks for being there man, i love you brother.

im gonna try and make it down this weekend, but i cant convince anyone to come up from there to our show in renselear, casue i cant afford the gas to voyage all the way down.

but ill do my best to figure somethin out

[xblackxdreamsx]

i think me and mark were thinking about coming up to that show....but i'm not sure. possibly. probably. maybe.

and yeah, i wish i could go too. that'd be amazing to be over there with you and james. instead of west lafayette.